is it hopeless? Options

[LittleLulu]

SO>.. ya its me...Alice..*sigh*...
so..i liked this guy since the first time i walked into my grade 7 class...n now im in grade 9...lets call him..um.."justin" haha soo not his real name though...n e wayz..at first...( since he was a firty guy)..he talked to the new girl--> ME...but stupid idiotic me often said"ohh..'justin' get a LIFE"..n i onli said it cuz i didn't know how to handle him talking to me..cuz i was nervouse n all..(n btw at that time he had a girlfriend who in my opnion was the prettiest girl in our grade..but there were onli 30 ppl n e wayz)..n eventually he stopped talking to me..

then when we went into grade 8, i wanted to go to this good skewl..with high acidemical scores..but i stayed at a sucky one..for HIM...i know its stupid...but n e ways, during grade 8 i didn't have n e classes with him and never said a word..(he n his girlfriend broke up at the beggining of the year..n he got another gf..but then broke up during the next summer)

n NOW we're in grade 9 and i found out that i had social studies with him n i was soo happi...once when in socials, i was walking back to the classroom from getting my pencil crayons..when i saw him walk out from it and said"your late"..i wanted to say smthn but i jus cudn't...its like i froze..( n im a pretty loud person...talk alot)...n today in socials class he came in late n sat beside me, a walkway away...cuz his friends were nearbye..n he borrowed some stuff from me like outliners n whiteout...n im actually suprised he KNOES my NAME...but it wasn;t like he asked me first or n e thing.. he asked alot of ppl before he came to me, even tho i was right next to him...

im pretty sure he knoes i like him..since i wrote him love letter emails before...n said who i was on the last one...but..still..i dont think he likes me...

so is this hopeless?
if it is then i jus wanna be friends..n how do i do that??cuz its soo akward between us....
ohh god i cant take this

[LittleLulu]

i would think it out.. me i stay up like nights after nights thinking about those kind of stuffs

uh-huh...but did i tell u im a nerd??*nerd pride** ...i WANNA focus on my work but he keeps poppin into my mind....

and i HAVE thought abt it alot..since i had a whole 2 years...but now..im used to NOT talking to the ppl i like n suffering from lonelyness....
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and i realize..that no matter how much i like him.. he;s still jus another human being , like everyone else..so i shudn't be freaking out(althought easier said than done)..but when ppl like sm1..in their minds the person are like GODS..which is kinda weird..im mean... THINK abt it...we're ONLY HUMAN...