Poem, It may trigger some who SI..but enjoy Options

[*mSz_dOrk_anGeL*]

I know it sucks.

i wanna be alone
don't dare try and make me a clone
it'd be a waste anyway,
who'd pay to see another ugly face?
im drowning in my sorrow, scared and dazed
my life feels like a never-ending maze
does anyone else feel similar pain
and wish they'd get hit by a train?
thats how i feel 24/7
im scared if i die i wont go to heaven
so i'll stay for a while, til i cant take it no more,
cry until my eyes are sore
drink my life away till it dont hurt no more

I got my wish i guess
im alone,
no ones home
the perfect time
to commit my crime
hands shaking, holding the sharpened knife
i knew it would come to this, it was just a matter of time
no one could reach out to me
to make me see
the reasons why, i should not die

the fridgid metal contacts my wrist
it glides across the skin
until maroon colored blood
spills over my hand
i sat there crying in the dark and unwelcoming shadows of my bathroom,
counting the painful drops of blood that hit the floor
when they stop i will suffer no more
my wrist wont be sore.
i wont see you again
you were my only friend
so trustworthy and loving
you never lied, only sat with me when i cried
you sit with me now, in my last minutes of life
but theres nothing you can do
and you were the only one i knew i could turn to
you dont know whats happening
because you are only death, my best friend.

[C.Lime.Jello.]

It's actually not that depressing.
But....
This is coming from the girl who likes squeezing the jucies out of cranberries and blackberries, just because it looks like blood.
(And who likes seeing bish covered in blood. ^_^)