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Brie ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 10,172 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 20,548 ![]() |
I'm utterly bored, and curious.
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![]() Sing to Me ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() ![]() Group: Member Posts: 1,825 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 10,808 ![]() |
I have. Not something I would brag about but it's in the past. No, it doesn't solve your problems but after awhile, I noticed I relaxed a lot during the process. It's sick I know but sometimes, when there's no one else to blame, you only got yourself. I felt I had to punish myself. The scars reminded me of something "bad" I've done and when I look at them, it tells me not to do it anymore. Some of you are saying it's wrong or dumb, but when I was trying to keep my head above water and sinking back into suicidal thoughts, I was problemed with all these low self confidence thoughts. That I'm useless and I caused so much trouble. I began hating myself for what happened and I just knew I had to be punished. Damn... it was an awful year. But I'm better now. A lot better. Things patched up nicely and my friends were there to throw me a life jacket. It might rain for forty days and forty nights but the sun has to come out sooner or later.
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