T_T, shes gone forever Options

[asiangetokewl]

Hey all, what's up?

Um, can someone please make me feel better in some way please???... like... I don't know how to say describe this post... but like... dahh the post does have meaning...

Right now I'm sad as hell, depressed you might say. I feel like running away, moving away, dying, etc; the worst possible things imaginable. My first girlfriend who I had true feelings for has left my life forever by going off to college. So what right, she's only at college?! Well... yesterday I gave her her grad gift and told her how I felt and this is what she emailed to me as her response to my outburst of my emotions for her.

"hey chris, i just wanted to say thanks for the purse and it wil definately come in handy during the school year. also i have been thinking about how it's not fair that i know how u feel towards me and that i don't mention any of mine, so here goes. There have been a lot of thoughts going through my head about this issue. i have very strong feelings for u... I'm sorry, HAD, but i also know that if there was ever a relationship again, it would go no where. so i guess, i would prefer if we stayed friends... or just go our separate ways in life..."

- my first "love"

I really wanted her back in my life... as what we had, but I guess I can't turn back time. Please help me with any advice, words, help w/e you've got.

thank you

chris

***plus i think i should've put this in relationships section... oops...

[eboarder2020]

Hey man,

Yeah I've been in your shoes... NOt exactly the same situation, but i know what its like to be dumped and i know what its like to lose someone that close. The best advice i can give you is to not hold anything back when it comes to how sad you are. If you wanna cry then let your tears fall like rain. If you wanna talk find someone who will listen and talk to them. If you have any emotions find someway to let them out... HOlding that kind of stuff in will kill anyone no matter how strong they are. Also it may help to take breaks during your day just to think about her and gather your thoughts... Surpressing those memories is also a bad thing because one day they might catch up to you, and you'll fall harder then ever... The last thing I did when I was dumped was listen to a few songs that either made me cry or made me think. One song in particular helped me alot... Its by Keith Urban and the song is called "You'll think of me"... I've posted the lyrics after this paragraph... But anywas take care and good luck.

I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me

I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So

Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me

So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need 'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah

And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday