I think I'm depressed. Options

[x3chrissyx3]

I think I have depression. I've had all of the symptoms you need to be diagnosed as such for more than 2 weeks. My mother is clinically depressed, and she's the person I really want to tell my issues too, but the few times I've even mentioned it she always blows it off and says no. I mean, I guess she always likes to play victim, but I'm seriously not who I want to be anymore. I don't know what to do, or what I can do...

Any suggestions? I really don't want to live like this anymore...not knowing why I'm feeling so incredibly miserable.

And if any of you have had depression before...are you getting by now? And, how do you manage?

help is appreciated...
thanks guys.

[xjjajeengx]

seriously. talk to someone. Anyone. even if that person doesnt want to listen. You have to get it out of your system so that you dont feel depressed.

There was a point in my life at which i was really depressed. See, my parents are divorced(ever since I was 5), my dad cheated on my mom with like 5 different mistresses, my grandma died, and grandpa got a new "wife" at that time, my mom was pissed at me constantly, i was having problems with my X, my friends were pissed off at me, I felt stupid and alone, my grades were dropping down (esp. in Math), and I had no where to turn to. It was so... just... so dark. I cant explain it. My mom had problems with sme of the members of my old church so we left and moved to this new church where I was lonely and bored because I didnt know anyone there. On top of that, my mom accidently revealed to be the real reason why my dad and mom divorced- because he cheated on her, etc(and this was frikken 7 years AFTER they divorced!). It was just... so ...UGH! and on top of that, my x-bf was yelling at me, and I was yelling at him, and all these little things kept piling up and just burdening me. Also, my friends thought i was too into my bf and i always ditched them and stuff, but i never realized it was my fault or what not. Actually, I think i realized too well but too late that it was all my fault.. and it just all came tumbling on me and i ended up in a dark ditch.

But, i started to realize that I had to move on. Even tho there are troubles in life, i cant do anything about them, but i can move on. That was the best choice in my life- My ex-bf and i went on a break (we're friends now) my mom stoppedbeing depressed and yelling at me because I tried not to pick fights with her, I started to talk to church people (and i met my bestest church friend) my dad and I started to talk slowly, my aunt (who i assumed hated me and was a big cause of my dad's divorce with my mom because she encouraged dad to marry the other woman) started to care for me, my grades slowly showed more effort and more work. it all worked out.. but i had to take the step.

^ hope that helped. feel free to IM me anytime, my SN is Angeloncloudzz