need some advice.. Options

[lilanglbaby418]

I'll try to make this short but if it ends up really long I'm sorry in advance!

First off, my name's Alanna and I'm 17 and a senior in high school so you know where I'm coming from. I went out with this guy named James back in April. It lasted not even a month. We broke up because he was pushing sex and I liked someone else. No regrets, right? Then I started dating Keith a month later. We went out for exactly two months (broke up the second week of July). We broke up because things just weren't working out, he'd rather do drugs, and it was just basically the wrong time kind of thing. I've been single for the past month and a half because my heart is confused.

I ran into this guy Ron at the gas station maybe three weeks ago. He was the first guy I ever liked from my old job. (I still work at the same company, just a different location) I'll just brief you on what happened there: I liked Ron. But I also liked Josh (the guy who stole my birthday..even though he was born almost an hour before me lol). Ron and Josh didn't like each other. I thought I was making the right decision and I chose to go out with Josh. I had known Josh longer and it turns out it didn't matter much. He turned out to be a jerk. Ron and I quit talking a long time ago. So I ran into him at the gas station and I thought my truck was dying (turned out it was just stalling.. how would I know? it never happened before lol). He helped me out and we've been talking ever since. We've gotten a lot closer these past few weeks and I'm happy for that. (Ron is exactly four days older than me!)

But, I met this guy named Darren. I work with him and we like each other. We're supposed to go on a date that hasn't exactly happened yet, but we'll see lol. And then I found out.. Darren is Josh's cousin (you know.. Josh from earlier). This town is just too small! Darren's turning 19 tomorrow (I still have to get him a birthday card!) and I'll be 18 in April. So age isn't really an issue. Darren and I have so much in common, and we just really get along. I really like him and I think it's pretty obvious he likes me too. With him, he's different from all the other guys. He's himself, he works two jobs, he goes to fgcu (sophomore in college this year), he plays baseball, and he still finds time to coach football (he played football in high school - quarterback of our varsity team his senior year -yes we went to the same school lol). He's just one of the most down-to-earth guys I have met in a long time. He's nice, friendly to everyone, sweet, and really caring. I'm not saying the other guys aren't like this, it's just with him it's so noticeable. You don't have to think about it, you just know.

And then.. James (from the beginning) called me and we've been talking for about a month. He still likes me and wants to get back together with me. I still like him and have feelings for him, but I just don't know if a relationship with me and him would be right. Everyone that knows we are talking is telling me not to go back out with him. And just a bunch of stuff that I already know, I just haven't thought about it. And I think I've come to a decision (which is to tell him that 'us' can never be again) but I just wanted an outside opinion from someone who hasn't been there EVERY step of the way.

I guess that's about it. Oh, I should also tell you about one more guy.. Derrick- my best guy friend in the entire world. We've been good good friends for three years in counting. We know everything about each other. We're so close that he even tells me about his sex life, that's how close. We're always talking, comforting each other, giving each other advice, and such. But lately.. okay so him and Niki broke up at the end of June and he knows Keith and I broke up in the beginning of July. Lately he's been kind of flirting a little way TOO much and hinting at a relationship. I think he's calmed down a bit since that one night, but yeah. I doubt anything would happen there. If we did date each other, it would be wonderful, we understand each other SO well. But I think right now, it's just friends, close friends, because I don't want to lose our friendship. Our friendship IS awesome. He's been there for me so many times when I needed him. He's the only guy besides Ron who has seen me cry and comforted me. He's seen my cry quite a few times because I'm a hopeless romantic. What can I say? lol

So.. if you think you could give me advice, thank you. And if I don't get back here right away - you can always read my online journal - www.xanga.com/lilanglbaby418 or www.livejournal.com/users/lilanglbaby418 (but with livejournal you'll have to add me as a friend and i'll add you so you can read!). Thanks for reading if you took the time to read it! Much love, Alanna

[xXbabi_gangstaXx]

too many guys!!! and too long of a story...but it kinda got interesting soo i jus kept reading on...n-e-wayz i think that u shouldn't go out w/ ur best friend...cuz he is ur best friend n like u said ur friendship is awesome....n if people don't think u should go w/ james...don't go w/ him...if things didn't work out b4 there's a 50/50 pecent chance that it won't work out...i think u should go out w/ darren...it jus seems like ur talking sooo much nice things about him that u can't realli think of n-e-thing bad about him....as for him being josh's cuzin...so wat?? i think u should jus giv him a chance...i mean josh had his chance n he blew it...he needs to understand that