The Lesson, YOU Tought me Options

[grapplefan]

this is my apology letter/writing to a cb member, she knows who she is. But its also a writing i tried my best to do it in writing form so it can also counts as one of my other writings to cb, because I enjoy writing for cb, and after every story I write I want everyone to learn something new, and i hope you really Remember the moral of this writing, if you enjoyed reading it please let me know in the tread, thanks.

To: you know who you are


Who would have thought I would have learned a lesson from you, on top of it, it was a lesson I thought id never need, I thought I already knew that lesson, hell I used to preach that damn message to my friends. Only thing is I never thought that it would come to me.

You claimed you really liked me, and I just couldn’t believe you, I had the chance to be your man and I didn’t take it, I’ve could of gone and seen you more often but I chose not too, a lot of times you were begging for my attention and I was just too stupid to see it!

You were my Asian supermodel, my sexy lil’ Chinese chic, my goddess, my queen, you liked me when no one else did, I was your so called “adorable pr boy”.

Its funny how I’m crying while I write this, I still picture them conversations we would have about out ½ Rican/ ½ Chinese Kid, I was Gonna’ be the fun dad, the one who would teach them how to play sports, and would teach them martial arts, and you would have been the best mom,

Now I’m starting to miss those conversations we would have about taking pics together at the photo booth, or just going for a nice date to the ice cream parlor, Now I miss all the times you would find it cute when I’d get all excited just because I would find a book I wanted at barnes and nobles bookstore, now I miss all the times you would wanna’ kiss me at that isle of the store and I would just move out of the way, now I regret all them times I did not let u cuddle with me.

My tears fall harder at the thought that you just slipped away, I could of stopped or at least try, but I didn’t, I just took you for granted I guess I just thought you would always be there I don’t know, im sorry for not taking all them chances I had to be your bf, im so sorry for all the times we argued, im so sorry for not being there for you emotionally when you most needed me.

Now your with him and I know he really loves you, and I guess he deserves you more then I do, and I deserve this pain, I wont lie, I took you for granted and im sorry, I guess this is karma paying me back, and I deserve every little bit of pain that I get, don’t know how much more pain I can take knowing that a very special girl just got away and on top of that I lost her friendship too, I wont ever know how your doing, because you changed your contact info, I guess I deserve and I’m so sorry.

I can’t sleep I have been up the whole night, I’m not even asking you for another chance all I’m asking is for your forgiveness, and your friendship.

But in a way you did me a favor, you thought me a lesson that will never leave me, and because of this lesson I am now a better man, and the lesson you just thought me is Never take what you have for granted, because you never know what you have until its gone

Now we both know im not 100% guilty in this, but I want to apologize for my part and im sorry I didn’t get to be the man you needed in your life, but again thank you for the lesson you just turned me into a better man and you left a lesson carved in my heart.

[Caitlin]

hey--haha ive talked to you on aim :) anyway
that is really sad.. got me all teary eyed but its great how you got your feelings out. you are a great writer & I hope everything turns out okay. Feel better