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[Kris87]

Have you ever had the feeling where you liked someone and they didn't like you back and you feel weird around them sometimes?? Sometimes I feel like that but right now I am puzzled. I have been so depressed, shut-up inside, pressured, sorry that i even have this stupid life, left-out, and just f**kin hatin this world. I have no one anymore...I hate this life...I wish I had a better one...one that I had someone in my life that loves me and that I could love them back. I have been so shut-up inside that I wish that I could just walk down a long road that never ends and never come back...just keep on walking 'til I have the answers to my troubled life and 'til I have found someone that really loves me and won't leave me here to rot like a slab of meat...I feel like punching something right now...so hard that it would break my hand. I just want to cry and cry and watch the whole world wash away and watch myself melt into the depths of my sadness and never return...never

[xjjajeengx]

Have you ever had the feeling where you liked someone and they didn't like you back and you feel weird around them sometimes?? Sometimes I feel like that but right now I am puzzled. I have been so depressed, shut-up inside, pressured, sorry that i even have this stupid life, left-out, and just f**kin hatin this world. I have no one anymore...I hate this life...I wish I had a better one...one that I had someone in my life that loves me and that I could love them back. I have been so shut-up inside that I wish that I could just walk down a long road that never ends and never come back...just keep on walking 'til I have the answers to my troubled life and 'til I have found someone that really loves me and won't leave me here to rot like a slab of meat...I feel like punching something right now...so hard that it would break my hand. I just want to cry and cry and watch the whole world wash away and watch myself melt into the depths of my sadness and never return...never    

yea i had that feeling before... in 6th grade haha... i liked someone very much, but he didnt even like me as a frend. he only said he liked me as a frend cause he felt sorry for me or something... and then, wen my frends called him (with me on the line but i was silent so he didnt noe i was on the fone) he told them that he thought i was really annoying and like all this other stuff that hurt my feelings so much... another reason why it was so hurtful was cause it was like... my first true "crush" in mid school, so i was like failure to my own life keke... and i guess ever since then, i always had something against him until like 7th grade end, cause he said sorry... but... i was like... always jealous and stuff of people he'd go out with and stuff just because of that grudge i had, not because i liked him for so long. true, i did like him for a really long time. even after my 2nd boyfrend, i was like... so attatched to my feelings for this guy. ~sigh~... but its all gewd now... cause i have someone who makes me happy and cheers me up alot... just sometimes i wish i could scream at him hehe but im okay

...dont be depressed and pressured...! yea, im sorry i have to live out this stupid life... but i mean, im going to have to live it out, might as well live it out well... you noe? cause you donr noe whats after life. i mean, i beeleev in heaven, but seriously... once ur in heaven or hell, ur stuck. (for me that is)

dont worry about someone being there for you. wen you least expect it, you never noe if that person will just happen to be in front of your eyes. you can say im living in my own hopeless fantasy, but i mean, i'd rather live like this than live a dreadful life that is just going to end up making me suicidal (again...) and i noe how you feel. beeleev me, i've been at that stage. i mean, its not like you were addicted to cutting urself 24/7 for the reason that you want to "numb" the pain in ur mind by concentrating on the one that's aching on ur wrist. so i noe you can pull urself through... I KNOW YOU CAN! just watever you do, dont get too sad, okay? you dont want to walk through a long road... im serious! it's depressing lmao (literally)

and feel better okay? dont hurt ur hand... you dont want scars.