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[Sa-Chan]

Okay, this is...a story, but kind of an essay with minor rhyming (like a poem). Please give it a chance. I wrote it while I was on a car ride with my parents.

As You Say
By: Savannah Harrison

You tell me not to leave. So I stay. I do exactly as you always say. I hide the tears that you could never see. I smile. Constantly. Until my mouth begins to hurt. I deal with my own deadly, festering pain and make room, to absorb yours.

All of the time I feel myself collapsing in fatigue. You expect me to say, "How high?" when you say, "Jump." You expect me to cry, every night, all of the time. But I won't.

I can't take much more of this. As I slowly lose my mind. I'm lost inside of everything. Everything that was never mine. But memories of times not as bad as these, refuse to leave, and plague my late night dreams.

I watch the moon, wondering if you watch it too. I used to care, but now I don't, because in the end, I'm threw with everything to do with you.

So I'll shut you out. Rip out my heart. Become cold and cruel to you. And near the finish, I'll not say a word, because all you ever really do is simply talk to you.

I'll be a wall. I'll be a mirror. I'll be everything you want me to. I'll be your life, but deep inside...I'm secretly plotting revenge. Truly wanting to bring about your own lowly demise. I'll lead you to your death.

Kill me, kiss me. It's all the same with you. Life is lie, and love will die. As your touch becomes like ice. I'll say goodbye, and let you go. I'll go on living as the princess you once saw me as.

You call me baby, always, maybe. But in my eyes, it only hides, the sick way you scream my name at night. Your lips of red, and thinly spread, they cause pain to my poor skin. Now I fear, that nothing will ever quite be the same.

So as our love freezes and shatters. I'll block out your gaze. Pretend none of this matters. Your nothing. Much like I feel nothing. Your gone. Much like my love for you is gone.

Emotion dissapates. Love disappears. And in a twist of fate...we weren't even real. You don't exist, and I'm stuck in my own fantasy world...As the rose, it withers, and fades into nothing more than thorns...