first time Options

[d3v1l1ci0us]

not really a poem.. i think i just had to express my self..
its the first time i felt like a helpless kid,
the first time i felt trashed,
the first time i felt alone,
the first time i waited for santa.. but no one came..
the first time i had sleepovers without someone lecturing me and being overprotective,
the first time i havent been camping for at least ONCE this summer,
the first time i havent felt the snow freeze my hands in the snow this winter,
the first time i had no one to kiss every morning and night,
the first time no one came in my room and calmed me when i was scared,
the first time i had no one to stay up late for new years with,
the first time he had never came and asked what i want for my birthday,
the first time no one ever cuddled me and called me "my little princess",
first time i could only see my dad once 2 months
i never imagined it would be this way.. i never imagined i would have "first times"..
i never imagined about crying everyday for the first time without a shoulder to lean on,

its been a first time ever since you left.

i miss you dad

[islandkiss]

awwww.. sniffles*