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[creole]

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i'm sick of being judged. i've had enough of holding back. i thought those two other people that replied back would be my friends, but apparently laughing at me is better. ok, this sounds like i'm overreacting, but if anyone could fit into my shoes, then at least you would feel a little bit sympathy. i don't know. i don't know who my friends are out of all my 539 friends. it sucks to see myself being critically hurt over this.. but i guess i'm the freakin victim again. i just wish the world could see the pain that everyone that's not "normal" go through and how much they judge them without even knowing them personally.



i thought there wouldn't be a thing like this that would come back again. but anything that's like this, i go back to my suicidal thoughts. i know more people in this world will not agree with my lifestyle and choices, but should we completely shun someone cause of this?

[creole]

I know I know. But I guess the thing is that if you don't want people being cruel then hold back on what you say? That's the only way for idiots to stop being mean to you. But you say you don't want to hold back, so if you don't then you just have to deal with the cruelness i guess : \

yeah, i don't want to monitor and control what i have to say about how i feelz about my lifestyle. i'm not going to be a chameleon and suit myself to their likings. it's hard for me, and probably hard to the other millions of gay teenagers that are probably in situations like this. i wish i had powers to just change peoples' hearts and i wish i had super armor that would at least reduce the pain and paranoia i get from over thinking of what people say.

Why are you adding people who don't even know if you're male or female? lol

lol, i was testing to see what the mofo would do. i actually know the guy, cuz i went on a fieldtrip with him and he sat right behind me, and he was so f*cking annoying. he kept hitting me in the face and messing with me. but i'm more mad at those two other people just joining the bash wagon. at times like, it really shows the true colors of people, huh?

[karmakiller]

lol, i was testing to see what the mofo would do. i actually know the guy, cuz i went on a fieldtrip with him and he sat right behind me, and he was so f*cking annoying. he kept hitting me in the face and messing with me. but i'm more mad at those two other people just joining the bash wagon. at times like, it really shows the true colors of people, huh?

I see. I was wondering why you would add someone like that, or why they would add you. Honesty, though, I just think your friends thought that what you posted was meant to be laughed at.