ever lost someone you didn't care about until you realized that you did? Options

[batman]

it was so stupid. like i didn't give a shit about this guy (from work), but i knew that he liked me and he was kinda cute so i decided to flirt around with it just for fun. like for a few weeks we fooled around and the entire time i was like "god wtf am i doing" and at one point it just felt so wrong, like i felt literally sick to my stomach whenever i thought about him, so i broke things off the bitchy way by acting completely cold and ignoring his calls and lying to him.

now he wont talk to me and all i can think about is how much i miss him.

haha. things are totally awkward now during our daily work meetings.

[karmakiller]

I'm not trying to come in here being a downer or anything, but as long as you still have access to the person, you have the opportunity to at least try to make things right, even if neither of you want to pursue a relationship in the future. I lost a close friend of mine a couple of years ago, and it's still something that I think about. We were close, but we never truly said anything about how we felt, although I'm sure we both felt the same way. It's one of those "what if" questions that will never be answered.