Wake up and Realize you're a piece of shit Options

[USCavalry]

i basically fell asleep for the past two years, woke up, and realized im a piece of shit

Summary:
i let so many people take advantage of me that i thought all people in general sucked, and in turn became a sucky person. i lost hope in the good things and lived mostly in fear of the bad. because of this fear i tried to compensate by being slightly more macho and a lot more dominant among friends and just in general. its like the douche bags in life are zombies and one of them bit me. you dont know when they bite you, you just slowly start turning into one.

Analysis:
so now im going back through essentially all of my memories and identyfing all the mistakes ive overlooked, especially those in the past couple years. im figuring out that you cant forgive people that take advantage of you, you can only move on and learn to avoid letting it happen again. you can only forgive people who actually want to be forgivenen, otherwise you harbor feelings of resentment beneath a genuine desire of simply forgiving them. im remembering how happy i used to be and am working on unlearning how to think and act like a person that was never really me, but a sort of lesser parallel version of myself.

Conclusion:
thats pretty much it. when the stress becomes almost unbearable i usually always start coming up with huge life and self realizations. im legally bipolar but always refused to take pills because i knew more to life existed beyond chemicals interacting with other chemicals in the brain. i finally am starting to figure out how awesome the world actually is and how awesome of a person i can be if i allow myself

side note: i find it sad that people who take pills ignore their problems and sacrafice inner peace for a diluted sense of reality. i know people like this who are popular, attractive, and always smiling. i used to think if i took pills i would be happy too, but there are issues lingering within them that may never allow them to be truely happy. you can accept the pain and move on, or live with it

edited side note at 2:12 AM

[brooklyneast05]

how do you know that people who take pills are "ignoring" their problems? do you know all of them and all of their problems? what if it helps them function? makes them happier? better off? it's condescending to say that since you've chosen not to take medication and believe you're better off, that everyone else should do exactly as you have done regardless of their situation or extent of their problems. a lot of people who take pills aren't taking them to be "happy" they are taking them for a variety of reasons to help them balance severe problems that are way more serious than whether someone is happy or not.

[USCavalry]

how do you know that people who take pills are "ignoring" their problems? what if it helps them function? makes them happier? better off? it's condescending to say that since you've chosen not to take medication and believe you're better off, that everyone else should do exactly as you have done regardless of their situation or extent of their problems.

i realized this statement would be condescending to many people taking prescription medication. i think you're right in extreme cases now that i think of it.
but there has been a large influx of diagnosed depression and other related disorders since the birth of psychology. i think people have begun thinking its normal to take pills before first giving a hard go at attempting to work out their problems. how many cases can you think of when parents blame their kids' actions on drugs? life is far from perfect
this is my opinion. i respect yours