I'm in love, And she left me Options

[Euphorian]

Created a new account for privacy's sake.

How should I put this? Alright, she, one day, popped into my life, she was a friend of someone I knew, and I immediatly felt this warm feeling when she first talked to me...I thought maybe...but I quickly put that in the back of my mind, and I continued to get to know her, and I started to like her. We would have hours of conversations, and we would always have something to say. It was so exciting to talk to her... So one day, I was talking to her on the phone, and she started up the conversation that she heard someone tell her that I liked her.

So, I was thinking, "shit!" I didnt really want to tell her yet, but it just happened... We went out for about 2 months, ( yes, 2 months, but before you call me an idiot for loving her after 2 months, read what I have to say. Er....try to say. ) All was well, and I liked her alot, but I didn't think it was love quite yet...but I felt like I may soon love her...

So then, I introduced her to my friend, and they talked...a little too much. They started talking, and they would have their inside jokes, and what-not. So, am I wrong to become jealous? My friend continued to talk about my girlfriend, and how she was nice and all, I know, compliments are compliments, but he was talking about her toomuch. Ah! The aggravation.

I told her I was jealous after about 2 weeks of keeping it inside, and then she dumped me. Ouch. I went over to my friends house, ( yes the same friend , and no, I didn't bring a bat to his head like some people may do. ) and I...cried...never had I thought I would cry over a girl.

What was worse was...he didn't realize, that it was his fault too. I felt stuck, unable to move...I cheered up in 2 hours or so, but I still felt empty...She said she still wanted to be friends, but you know what? I realized how you girls/guys always want to be friends after you tear out our hearts and shove it down our god-damn throats.

But I guess at least she wants to be friends? She did some other stuff that was pretty mean, but I'm not gonna say, just because. After she dumped me, and a few days later, even though she was doing all this mean stuff to me after she dumped me, I realized...I...love her... Even now, I want to talk to her, but I just can't unless she first talks to me...I know that I love someone I can't have...Its frustrating to know that when your heart aches for that person..to be close...

I heard from someone she still likes me...Then the question arises, like, WHY DID SHE DUMP ME? I couldn't go back out with her, even if she did like me...I just can't. Yes, I want to go out with her, but it won't be the same. I won't have happy conversations with her, and being close with her wont be the same. So now, I say again, just to end it because this is a long-ass post.

I love her.

[Darkpekkle]

i've been in a similar situation, so i guess i know how you feel. at least she's willing to be friends- that's a good start. you can ask her why she left you, and hope she'll be truthful about it. if she avoids the subject, then there's nothing you can really do. in the meanwhile, keep busy. hang out wiht a bunch of your friends ,do something fun...