I'm in love, And she left me Options

[Euphorian]

Created a new account for privacy's sake.

How should I put this? Alright, she, one day, popped into my life, she was a friend of someone I knew, and I immediatly felt this warm feeling when she first talked to me...I thought maybe...but I quickly put that in the back of my mind, and I continued to get to know her, and I started to like her. We would have hours of conversations, and we would always have something to say. It was so exciting to talk to her... So one day, I was talking to her on the phone, and she started up the conversation that she heard someone tell her that I liked her.

So, I was thinking, "shit!" I didnt really want to tell her yet, but it just happened... We went out for about 2 months, ( yes, 2 months, but before you call me an idiot for loving her after 2 months, read what I have to say. Er....try to say. ) All was well, and I liked her alot, but I didn't think it was love quite yet...but I felt like I may soon love her...

So then, I introduced her to my friend, and they talked...a little too much. They started talking, and they would have their inside jokes, and what-not. So, am I wrong to become jealous? My friend continued to talk about my girlfriend, and how she was nice and all, I know, compliments are compliments, but he was talking about her toomuch. Ah! The aggravation.

I told her I was jealous after about 2 weeks of keeping it inside, and then she dumped me. Ouch. I went over to my friends house, ( yes the same friend , and no, I didn't bring a bat to his head like some people may do. ) and I...cried...never had I thought I would cry over a girl.

What was worse was...he didn't realize, that it was his fault too. I felt stuck, unable to move...I cheered up in 2 hours or so, but I still felt empty...She said she still wanted to be friends, but you know what? I realized how you girls/guys always want to be friends after you tear out our hearts and shove it down our god-damn throats.

But I guess at least she wants to be friends? She did some other stuff that was pretty mean, but I'm not gonna say, just because. After she dumped me, and a few days later, even though she was doing all this mean stuff to me after she dumped me, I realized...I...love her... Even now, I want to talk to her, but I just can't unless she first talks to me...I know that I love someone I can't have...Its frustrating to know that when your heart aches for that person..to be close...

I heard from someone she still likes me...Then the question arises, like, WHY DID SHE DUMP ME? I couldn't go back out with her, even if she did like me...I just can't. Yes, I want to go out with her, but it won't be the same. I won't have happy conversations with her, and being close with her wont be the same. So now, I say again, just to end it because this is a long-ass post.

I love her.

[saintsaens]

that is so sad...omg...you just said what i've tried to say for about a month now.  my boyfriend broke up with me 4 days short of two months...i know you can love her b/c i love him so much...it is possible to feel that way about someone that soon...anyway back to the topic....just be friends...eventually maybe things will work out and you'll get back to where you were...when he broke up with me, it was the 3rd time we had went out...our love for each other just came back...this time i feel it may be for good...but i can't let him go b/c i love him...just try to make things work...i normally would say TALK to her, but i know how you feel about calling...since they are the one who ended it...just pray she'll call...that's what i'm hoping for...keep in touch so i know how things are goin and maybe you can help me...

Man, life sucks.