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[vietbabiiix3]

I consider myself a smart girl when it comes to school.

Yeah right, I'm not smart at all. Have you ever felt so stupid? Like you wasted your time on someone not worth it. And now you sit here not knowing how to feel or what to think?

That happened to me.

My first boyfriend, I thought he loved me... We went out for a year and half, and he dumped me out of the blue. Before he liked me and asked me out, I was informed by him that he chose me over this other girl who also liked him at the time. I'm a very naive person, very carefree, not the type who constantly needs a boyfriend, etc. So I thought I'd give this relationship a try. Now, the girl who liked him - she's nice and everything, so I kept my guard down the whole 1 1/2 years that we were together. He dumped me for her. He cheated on me... He still denies it, but he did cheat on me... with her. I felt so hurt, I hated everything and everyone. I didn't even know I could even feel that way or act that way. Before knowing he cheated, I kept blaming myself - Was I a bad gf? Did I do something wrong? That phase of my life - I was very very foolish. I'm sure this has happened to everyone. What's even worse is after I found out he left me for her, I still made up excuses for him - like "Oh... cause maybe I neglected him... so he needed someone better." BULL SHIT! What the hell was I thinking?


Yeah, until his best friend liked me... And we were close to going out, but I didn't like him, because I didn't want to hurt my ex boyfriend. Wrong move. Wrong.

Now, it's been almost a year since we broke up. It feels like I lost to that girl, but I don't find myself any uglier than her or any way lesser than her. I've been informed that he cheated on her as well, even though he constantly admits to being completely in love with her. Again, another piece of bullshit. What's hard to understand, is while going out with me, he took it seriously. Maybe I'm wrong because I don't know him, but he made it seem like... if I broke up with him, he'd rather die. Like a puppy in love. All this time I thought, hmm... maybe he just changed, but I KNOW THIS GUY. I KNEW HIM!

WRONG. AGAIN. COMPLETELY, and UTTERLY, WRONG.
Because his best friend just told me, he only went out with me because that girl rejected him. So now this 1.5 years that I devoted to him - was just a lie. I was just a rebound, kicked and tossed. Hurt and destroyed. Dumped and broken-hearted.


I'm really stupid aren't I?
But don't you worry, cause I'm fine =)Because he's a little hobo now with no friends. (To think that before I knew, I felt bad for him and wanted him to make friends and encouraged people to talk to him again -_-'')
I just needed to let it out, and I wanted to let all the girls on Createblog know that, if your boyfriend, SO, or crush doesn't treat you right, leave him. Don't make excuses for him. Don't waste your time. Don't. Not worth it. BE STRONG.

[dustbunny]

everyone gets f*cked over a bit if not by ridiculous amounts when anything involving "emotions" comes into play.

this shit gets the best of everyone.