honest opinions about yourself Options

[synatribe]

well after some things I have heard from people I wanted to start a topic so that people will get to know my side
so heres where you post opinions about yourself and only yourself

Im a very honest, Im very blunt also, Im not going to hide it
yes I have jocked the Marksterr and Roxanne's layouts before but in all honesty that was during my learning, imitaiting cool people phase.

I told you Im honest Im not going to run away from createblog or try to defend myself, honestly though Im dissapointed at how some staff handled the issue, also Im very annoying at first, cause thats sort of a test to you from me. idk but eventually I grow respect for you.
so yea after all the "honest opinions about you thread" I felt like I needed to explain.

how do you see yourself?

[superstitious]

I'm far more complex than my online persona would give out. I'm a genuinely kind person, but I'm also bitter, sarcastic and cynical. A lot has contributed to that (and I wouldn't dare get into all of it online), but that isn't an excuse to harbor some pretty intense negative feelings about things that happened years ago. I am also incredibly tough and critical on myself - my actions, my reactions. I'm easily my worst critic and hardly my own biggest fan. That being said, I'm confident in some areas, ridiculously insecure in others.

I never wanted to be a mother. I always thought that the idea of me having a child would be a horrible situation. I don't care much for children and I like having time to myself and the freedom to do what I want, when I want. However, my son and I are the closest thing to "soul mates" I have ever personally witnessed. I think that I might have gone down a very dark path had it not been for him. While I'm not at all a religious person, I've always felt that Iz was my "savior", for lack of a better way of putting it. He is my saving grace, my ultimate accomplishment and the love of my life.

I'm a bit of a contradiction at times.