i need cheering up...., ................. Options

[sweet_thang_135]

im really upset ............my cousin who was like 24 yrs old had cancer..........she recently died and we werent only cousins....we wer best friends.........going to her funeral was the worst experience of my life...........sitting around with a bunch of ppl and i was thinking that none of them knew her like i did.........well maybe her mom but ther were even sum of her cuzins that wer just talkin and even laughin thru it whil i was hystericaly crying i felt liek goin to them and just smackin them in their faces .......but i didnt ........losing her was like losing the sister i never had......i feel life will never be the same and my friends dont understand exept one whos cousin also died but a long time ago...........i just need cheering up.........plz thank you

[*NatiMarie*]

I'm sorry...I can't believe your friends would actually say that. You know, if they did shut you up, they're not really your friends. I mean, friends don't shut others up. I'm so sorry this had to happen. I mean, I can't personally say from experience that this has happened to me but it would be hard to imagine. This is really tough and difficult to deal with but slowly the pain will seize away. Right now you're probably feeling disbelief...because that's how I felt when my uncle died too. I cared for him a whole lot and I mean, he was the greatest uncle ever. He was just so cool and then when I learned that he had a heart attack, it just killed me. I couldn't believe it and I didn't want to believe that he was gone. I can just imagine how you feel but I truly hope that you feel better. You deserve more comfort and that pisses me off that your 'friends' would actually do that to you.

I seriously hope everything goes well and you know, you can always e-mail me if you need someone to talk to. I hope you feel better.
Time will pass, and your cousin will still be with you there forever to give you guidance. Although you can't see her, you can always feel her presence because she'll still be with you.