today's lesson, lets spin 2nekkeds wheel of morality Options

[*[2]Nekked*]

so lets just skip the introductions here. by now i hope that we've all been acquainted, or rather, you've been acqauinted with me. so i'm just going to go straight into it.

this quote seems to be a recurring theme in my life lately:

in life we take many risks. loving you was the biggest risk of them all.

todays lesson kids:

never trust anyone. ever. never leave yourself vulnerable. and dont cry in front of others. it isnt becoming.

so my name there. 2nekked. lets break it down once again shall we?

2nekked = too nekked = too naked.

in this case i am using the second definition of naked:

exposed; vulnerable to harm. susceptible to pain.

at this moment... my screen name fits me perfectly.

i had a bad past.. the only thing i've ever remembered about my past is pain.. lots of pain; bloody, and hard, and full of tears and screaming. so naturally i learned to make myself hard from outside in. i promised myself that i would never put myself in a position to be hurt by another human being again.

but hey. guess i'm a dumbass, because i did.

i opened my heart to someone and i got crushed. its like opening my wings and flying for the first time. feeling free.. soaring through the air and then being shot down, falling endlessly into a dark pit of despair, writhing and shrivelling with fear and pain.

and i guess i just wont ever learn. because it seems like i'm some kind of masochist when it comes to love, and caring for another human being.

i just keep coming back for more.

he hurt me. but do i still love him?



absolutely.

[Winter]

Everyone's a dumbass when it comes to love. Meh what I feel anyway.

And that trust thing you talked about, it so damn true.

I never trusted anyone in my whole life before I met him. I made sure I kept everything inside coz I didn't want to seem weak to anyone. But when he came, he found the key to the lock of my heart.

I poured my heart and soul to him. I showed him who I really was. Now I look back and think of how stupid I was. I showed someone just how vulnerable I am. Shows what a dumbass I was.

But after verything, I still freaking love him. And I hate him and myself for that.