I'm in love with my best friend of 11 years :[, Please help! idk what to do. I cant hold it in anymore. Options

[Heartourbeat]

So i've been best friends with this guy since I was about 4. We were next door neighbors and did. EVERYTHING together. We even got married when we were like 5. haha. Anyways, when we were 10 he moved about an hour away, and I didn't see him as much but i still saw him every 2 months or so. THen he moved back and he lives like 5 minutes away. Now we are almost 16 and I see him every few months. My problem is, I've been in love with him since I was like 5 and I really don't know if he feels the same way. We are always flirty and have physical contact. Last summer I almost thought we would be together because we were acting like something was going to happen, and then he flipped out and told me I should workout with him and get in shape. (I'm a little overweight, but not too bad.) He really isn't shallow but it just seems to me like he realized he was starting to like me, and he didn't want to because i was overweight or something!? Anyways, hes also always bragging to me about his "hot girlfriends with abs", and hes not even that hot. He is cute, but not like OMG! But now I really don't know what to do, because i have a boyfriend but all I really want is to be with my best friend, and I'm afraid to put myself out there and ruin our friendship. My mom and my sister are convinced he loves me back, but I really dont know. What do i do!? and how do i tell if he wants me back!? any advice will help. and yes, I know i shouldnt be with my boyfriend if i like my best friend, but I also like my boyfriend....i just really would rather be with my best friend. ah. help me!

ps, sorry if this doesnt make much sense, im typing this in a hurry!!

[Glamourouz]

^ Exactly; that's the only way he will now & the only way you can ease your mind knowing whether or not he feels the same. If he doesn't you haven't lost a friend, you just cleared the air & made things less complicated for you.