today's lesson, lets spin 2nekkeds wheel of morality Options

[*[2]Nekked*]

so lets just skip the introductions here. by now i hope that we've all been acquainted, or rather, you've been acqauinted with me. so i'm just going to go straight into it.

this quote seems to be a recurring theme in my life lately:

in life we take many risks. loving you was the biggest risk of them all.

todays lesson kids:

never trust anyone. ever. never leave yourself vulnerable. and dont cry in front of others. it isnt becoming.

so my name there. 2nekked. lets break it down once again shall we?

2nekked = too nekked = too naked.

in this case i am using the second definition of naked:

exposed; vulnerable to harm. susceptible to pain.

at this moment... my screen name fits me perfectly.

i had a bad past.. the only thing i've ever remembered about my past is pain.. lots of pain; bloody, and hard, and full of tears and screaming. so naturally i learned to make myself hard from outside in. i promised myself that i would never put myself in a position to be hurt by another human being again.

but hey. guess i'm a dumbass, because i did.

i opened my heart to someone and i got crushed. its like opening my wings and flying for the first time. feeling free.. soaring through the air and then being shot down, falling endlessly into a dark pit of despair, writhing and shrivelling with fear and pain.

and i guess i just wont ever learn. because it seems like i'm some kind of masochist when it comes to love, and caring for another human being.

i just keep coming back for more.

he hurt me. but do i still love him?



absolutely.

[eboarder2020]

Hey Bud

I know what you mean about the quote about love and pain... It happens to all of us. I know what its like to feel free and to feel as though nothing can stop you only to be hit harder then you ever felt before. But you are right. Love is a risk that we all take. If your heart isnt broken, then your heart is asking to be broken. I know that Love is a confusing thing sometimes but I guess the one thing that we all have in common is that we all want the Number 1. We all look for that special him/her to fill our hearts with the love and passion that we thurst for, but like the saying goes, our lover will only be one in a million. You just gotta keep hammering out the bad ones so that when the good one comes along you'll know exactly that he is the one to be with you forever.

Im truely sorry that your heart got crushed and that the pain and heartache are all that is left. I dont have anything to completely make you feel better like a pill, but if its one thing you should know is that If you want big rewards you gotta take big risks... Love is a big reward if your willing to take the risk. So dont blame yourself, dont feel ashamed that you fell for something hard because all you wanted to do was go for the big reward.

Hold your head up high kiddo and god Speed