today's lesson, lets spin 2nekkeds wheel of morality Options

[*[2]Nekked*]

so lets just skip the introductions here. by now i hope that we've all been acquainted, or rather, you've been acqauinted with me. so i'm just going to go straight into it.

this quote seems to be a recurring theme in my life lately:

in life we take many risks. loving you was the biggest risk of them all.

todays lesson kids:

never trust anyone. ever. never leave yourself vulnerable. and dont cry in front of others. it isnt becoming.

so my name there. 2nekked. lets break it down once again shall we?

2nekked = too nekked = too naked.

in this case i am using the second definition of naked:

exposed; vulnerable to harm. susceptible to pain.

at this moment... my screen name fits me perfectly.

i had a bad past.. the only thing i've ever remembered about my past is pain.. lots of pain; bloody, and hard, and full of tears and screaming. so naturally i learned to make myself hard from outside in. i promised myself that i would never put myself in a position to be hurt by another human being again.

but hey. guess i'm a dumbass, because i did.

i opened my heart to someone and i got crushed. its like opening my wings and flying for the first time. feeling free.. soaring through the air and then being shot down, falling endlessly into a dark pit of despair, writhing and shrivelling with fear and pain.

and i guess i just wont ever learn. because it seems like i'm some kind of masochist when it comes to love, and caring for another human being.

i just keep coming back for more.

he hurt me. but do i still love him?



absolutely.

[nas]

Agreed with the whole trust bit. I don't mind the crying in front of others though , but only when and if it's for appropriate, unselfish reasons. As in, if you're really hurt, why be so scared to show it? But not when you cry out of self-pity, or in attempt to gain pity from others.

Then again, I'm quite apathetic to many things, so the need to cry for me doesn't come quite often at all.



I've been scarred as well, and I think most everyone has, but I don't find shuttering people out is the solution. Perhaps I'm just a hopeless romantic, finding a little good in everyone and looking forward to more people instead of shunning them. Or just a really big optimist at heart. At times I've been hurt, it has made me realize who is really there for me and how much I should be thankful for those people.

Getting hurt is inevitable, so I think the best we can do is learn from our mistakes. And from the lessons we learn, apply it to life and look forward to brighter days. As the old adage goes, knowledge is power and with each learning experience you gain knowledge, so in turn, stay powerful.

aw, Trish!

Love is one of the most painful emotions we can have.  It can be the greatest feeling in the world, or it can totally break your heart.

To quote pyoon, "Love is more of an amplifier of emotions."


Trish, I wish you the best with the people around you. You may deal with the situation differently from me, but the way we handle these problems builds character. And you definitely have that .

And oh, I still love the people that have hurt me as well. It's only natural, but there's a fine line between logic and emotion. Loving isn't masochism, it depends on what you do for it that is.