Tung Needs Help, Regretting a Relationship Options

[Tung]

After I graduated high school, I was still in the middle of a relationship that was 8 month strong. It was the longest relationship I've ever been in. That summer I was getting ready to move away, and start off college, while my ex was becoming a senior in high school. Yes, she was one year younger than me. We decided that the whole long distance thing wouldn't work out, and it would be unfair for the both of use to continue the relationship knowing full well that once we got our ways, we would find other people. We broke up that summer after 9 long months. It was the greatest 9 months in my whole 19 years I've ever lived so far.

Even since that relationship, I've had two others. One lasting only a month, and another lasting 3 months. I was never quite as happy with these two relationships I had, as I was with the one I had during my senior year in high school. Lately, I been single for quite some time now, and I just feel depressed nowadays. I think about my relationship with my ex I had 2 years ago, and I wished we never broke up in the first place. I wished I had tried harder to make the long distance work. She was the greatest thing that ever happened to me, and I blew it. Sometimes it's really hard to find interests in other girls, when I go out, and the girls are like totally hitting on me, but I just ignore them. That's because I still have feelings for my high school ex.

I don't know what I should do here. I mean I haven't talk to her in 2 years, and I know for sure she's still single, and haven't dated anyone since we broke up. I know because I still check her facebook, and myspace and word of mouth from her friends. I need opinions and a little help here on how I should approach her and this situation. How do I tell her I want to be together again. I mean I'm afraid she might reject me, and not want me after these long two years.

I don't know. I just been really sad these past weeks, and regretting I ever made the decision to break up with her. I mean we both agree to break up that summer, but it was me who brought up the idea. She wanted to try to long distance for a while and see how it goes, but I never gave it a try. Sigh..any help would be great here.

[LoveToMySilas]

^ Sounds like a plan. I wish you the best. Be sure to fill me in!

[Tung]

^ Sounds like a plan. I wish you the best. Be sure to fill me in!

Okay, so I unexpectingly went home this weekend. Well just Sunday lol, for a day. But yeah, I called her up to tell her I was back home, and asked her if she wanted to hang out and catch up on some things. I drove to her house and picked her up (yes I still remember where she lives after two years haha). We went to Santana Row, and walked around and talking about what we been up to and stuff. We went to a Sushi resturant nearby, and ate a little bit. It was really fun, talking to her again. I know I shouldn't have rushed it, but I haven't been home in a month since I made this topic, and when I finally came back home, I really wanted to hang out with her. It was sorta like a date I think, since Santana Row is hella classy and "romantic" like and it was just the two of us. I didn't tell her I still had feelings for her though yet. We're gonna hang out again sometime again in the near future. But I found out she's still single!