Message to Anyone, V.40 Options

[superficial]

I'm sure all of you know what to do. Write a message to anyone who isn't a CreateBlog member, anonymous or not.

: You're a disappoint, no really, you are.
: How's it feel like being the Wicked Witch of the West?
: It was fun having a day of talking with you. I missed the days where we used to always just lounge around, have fun, and talk. I really missed you, although sometimes you make me really angry and frustrated.
: You're a bitch sometimes, but sometimes I really love you. Mixed emotions that are bittersweet. Ha!
: You're a total bitch.

Reason for edit: Clarified who messages can be written to. - Cristy

[Just2Fresh]

(I havent posted here in awhile...but its time...)

Last night me and my mom got into a big arguement. At first it was just the typical her yelling at me so I called you to help me out. Things were said that I had never heard her say before and needed guidance and comfort...I called...over and over again I called but you didnt even have it in you to pick up regardless if you were mad at me. I texted you and got no reply...You dissapeared on me when I really needed you. I had never been hit so hard by my mom and it hurt worst because you were not there to comfort me and get me through it...Around 3am she came in my room again, wanting to finish what she had started. I was defenseless, I was confused as to what I had actually done and why she said I was in the wrong. Since you didnt pick up the phone I had not calmed down from earlier. I yelled back...I said things back, and thats a no no. But I didnt know she would take it as far as she did.

I got kicked out. I was told to grab some of my stuff and get the hell out. See I called you about 20 times before and not once did you pick up and you ignored my calls. If I were to call now I would be even more devestated than I already was. I was outside on the pourch for awhile thinking of what I was going to do and why you were not on the phone telling me that everything would be ok...I had no car keys so I couldnt sleep in the car, I was outside in my blue hoodie and nascar jacket, cold as hell and alone. Did I cry? No...if I were to cry that would be wasted tears because you dont care anymore. I walked around and then tried to go back in. Do you know what happened? Of course you wouldnt...no one answered...I rang twice and I heard my mom slam her door and not another sound was heard except the dogs barking...Still I was alone, rejected not just by you but by my own mother as well. Who was I to go to who would understand? No one...no one at all. I had to blow up Austin's phone and have him ask his folks if it was ok for my to spend the night and I did.

I couldnt sleep though. I laid in bed looking up at the ceiling for hours. I only got an hour maybe two hours of sleep and felt horrible in the morning. I felt so lonely so betrayed. You said you would always be there no matter what but look...you were gone...Couldnt put things aside for a second or even talk it out with me. You wouldnt talk it out cause Im always in the wrong and your always right no matter what. The morning came and still you do not care. The day went by, nothing. Im sitting here next to you in our night class now typing this and what? NOTHING, thats what. Youve listened to your ipod and not looked at me, talked to people on aim and doin your english work but never have you took the time for the person you claim to care so much about to ask how he is or if he is ok....

I'm far from ok...I need someone there who has been there before times before to be there for me now, someone who has been here where I am before and can help me...you right?? Its supposed to be you, in my eyes it is but you dont care at all to even trip. I bet if I got in a car crash tonight you wouldnt even pick up the phone if my mom or sister called would you...just like you didnt pick up the phone for me last night...I havent eaten all day because "what you aint paid for leave it the f**k alone." Ive just been....packing...graduation isnt until June but all day I have been packing...Where will I go? Who knows, but at the same time why does it even matter anymore...all questions I thought you would answer for me, or give me some guidance on...but I guess not cause you cant even look at me and ask. You just dont care...

The end.