depression, do you suffer from it? Options

[Melie]

lately my depression has been getting worse. i'm just curious as to how everyone else handles their depression if you have any. but if i'm the only one then oh well.

[Sprague]

I also have depression. I've been battling it since about 12 years of age (I'm 18 now), and only recently have had outside help. I handled it okay until about my junior year of highschool. Then senior year, I kind a sorta... snapped. I lost interest in my AP classes, dropped out of all my sports I was taking, never wanted to hang out with my friends. All I did was stay huddled up in my bedsheets, just wishing I would fall asleep and miraculously never wake up again. I never graduated high school because of it, which, of course, had a violent, negative effect on my depression.

I've been put on Wellbutrin at my first psychiatrist, and now am on Prozac at my second psychiatrist, as well as Abilify for my social anxiety disorder. I don't think they've helped at all, because I still feel the same way. I just feel... wrong.

I've also tried things to occupy my mind like playing MMO's, or video games, or drowning myself in movies or music. I have no friends so I have no one to talk to. The only person I talk to on a regular basis is my boyfriend (yeah, not even to my mom). And I only recently started mustering up enough energy to go online and do something other than lay in bed. I keep a journal, and even a livejournal, but those only help temporarily, nothing long term.

Anyways. Enough of my ramblings. Melie, if you ever need to talk to someone who slightly understands where you're coming from, I'm always here if you need to talk. Then again, I don't have a husband deployed in Iraq, nor a daughter, so I can't quite compare, but I'm a great listener. :] Although I give sucky advice. If you couldn't tell. ._.