Your Opinion About Life, Whats your opinion about life? Do you have one or does it seem.... Options

[soulgetpast]

Whats your opinion about life? Do you have one, or does it change frequently depending on what kind of mood your are in, what you see, what you say, the people you are around?

In my eyes no matter what i cant have one opinion on life. You always feel different about it everyday.

[xquizit]

nothing in my life feels right at the moment. not my career, my relationships, my location/living situation. my life doesn't feel like my own, it doesn't resemble who i am. i daydream often of what my life should be but i have only taken baby steps.

at this stage in my life, i feel somewhat immobilized. i feel stifled by my job, my location, my comfort (which is ironically uncomfortable). i feel that i need change in order to feel inspired to be more active. i feel like i'm just killing time all the time. that everything is a distraction of sorts. i feel like i'm in a floating state, a purely physical state of existence. i haven't put my heart and soul into anything. and i feel like i haven't made anything of myself and i won't make anything of myself until i move out of dc. i want to start over, i need a clean slate, a fresh canvas. i want to recreate myself.

i've done everything that was expected of me. i've made it through college, i'm progressing well in my career, i've made amends with my family, and i've fostered close and lasting friendships. and all thats left is to find myself. i've yet to find my true passion, my true gift, my true love (ew, i'm gay). i need something/someone to put my heart into. not that i don't love my family, my friends, or my birds, but these aren't things i can dedicate my life to. school and work hasn't helped me to discover these things so i feel that i need to branch out in order to do so and thats what i plan to do with traveling/moving. i know that i must take myself out of my comfort zone and expose myself to new things, new experiences, and new people.

to sum it up, i feel that we are meant to dedicate our lives to our passions and our gifts, and i haven't begun to do so because i've yet to find out what these things are. i've been wandering and i'm just starting to find a sense of direction. and the direction is pointing on every point on the map. lol.



f**k, it's probably just this cold weather that's making me feel this way.