My brain does weird things at 2am. Options

[libertie]

Profound thoughts for the day..

I just saw my name next to Trish's reading a post, and I thought, "Wow.. those were going to be my wedding colors.."

I was impressed today when my history teacher pronounced my friend's last name correctly - Trottier - on the first attempt. It's Trott-ee-ay.

My cousin drew some pictures for my refrigerator. I like how when you're a kid it doesn't matter if one arm is thicker than the other. By like a thousand percent. With large vertical stripes on it. Like, I'm serious, I thought it was supposed to be a ghost until she said "THAT IS A GINGERBREAD MAN."

I saw Cloverfield today, and was disappointed - not by the movie, but by the fact that the theater was packed and a majority of the crowd was booing at the end because they were too dumb to get it.

When I have children, I'm going to show them the original Star Wars trilogy before even exposing them to the prequels. I can't deprive them of the absolute shock of seeing Empire Strikes Back for the first time. I will allow them to choose whether or not to see the prequels. They will think I'm a loser and they'll make fun of me at school for not being hip, and the fact that I just used the word "hip" proves that.

Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing on the internet. Does this fit into my life goals? Is it helping or hindering my progress? Am I too dumb to realize that none of this matters? (Yes.)

I say things that I sometimes regret later, and I know while I'm saying it that it's not a good idea. But out of complete hardheadedness I keep going as if I'm rebelling against common sense. I think a lot of self-destruction happens that way.

I think I'm awake right now because I've been so busy this week that I seriously wanted to get as much "me" stuff done tonight as possible before finally closing my eyes. I'm lame.

Good night CB VIPs. ;)

[dustbunny]

speaking of electronic hiatuses, I ended up going on a weeklong abstinence from AIM. big deal for me, as for the past 5 years, I have been going on aim 23 hours a day, whether or not I even engage in meaningful/lasting conversations. Ironic, since in the past no matter how many times I have decided to take a break or set out a time frame, I just wasn't able to control myself. This time, the beginning of the abstinence was a completely spontaneous action. There was no "OKAY THIS WEEK I AM QUITTING AIM." Lo and behold, I held out for a week.

As for the 2am looniness, I am like that everyday. My sleeping schedule is almost nonexistent and I live on sleep deprivation. Rarely do my total hours amount to over 3, and yet I am the person who seems least likely to be sleep deprived. Hyper as f**king hell, I have more energy than those that sleep 3x as much as I do. The thing is, I have yet to fix this. I know that I'm going to die prematurely due to the over exhaustion of my kidneys or liver or some shit like that, but I just don't have the self control to fix this aspect of my life.

Well, I was supposed to talk about my craziness. The thing is, the best time to get to know me is at 2 am, when I have no verbal filters, no emotional inhibitions, and no barriers. I make the most, and least sense during those in between hours.