im feeling very open right now so... Options

[JCLore]

sorry this is so long but if you dont know all
you wont understand completely

I spent most of my childhood trying to blend in with people
i've constantly changed my appearence and personality to fit in
but i've never been successful in making a good true friend
i've had a best friend at points but it lasts about 2 years and then its over

i was a loner at the end of year 8
nobody wanted to talk to me or anything
in year 9 i started home education
which meant i had no contact with any other beings but family
im now in year 11 going 12
and all i have is online friends
and even those are few

i joined the Australian Air Force Cadets a while back
but all the people in the recruit area are 3 years younger than me
there fun and good friends but i think i need to make friends my age

im now going to a youth group and enjoying it
my closest cousin "Desiree" goes and has helped by introducing me to her friends
there great and my age and older, which is a bonus
i went to school with one of them but he hates me i think

My main point is that i feel intrusive into desirees life and i hate making people feel uncomfortable
any advice on what i should do would be greatly appreciated??

[JCLore]

this is gonna sound really corny
but...
because ive changed so much just to fit in
i dont know how to be myself

[fameONE]

this is gonna sound really corny
but...
because ive changed so much just to fit in
i dont know how to be myself

"Life isn't about finding yourself, life is about creating yourself."

Although, by taking a step back from all of this, then figuring out what it is that makes you happy, then compiling all of that together to suit you for the sake of your own happiness, is finding/creating yourself at the same time.

What makes you happy? Don't worry about whats popular, or trying to make friends. If you can't be happy on your own, how can you be happy around others?

[JCLore]

If you can't be happy on your own, how can you be happy around others?

easy
some ppl arent made to be alone
like my older brother
if he knows hes gonna be alone for any length of time
he will literally invite himself over to his mates house
hes Sanguin, im Sanguin/Flegmatic which means my personalities war with each other

is it just me or does anybody know anything about personalitiy types??