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 Nov 17 2007, 04:20 AM
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Dear cB diary,
It's my birthday in a week. I'm so freaking excited. I really hope it turns out as I plan it to be...I'm just so damned paranoid not enough people will give me their money for the bus! Ack. I need a few more still but oh well. In the meantime, school is keeping me busy (yet here I am on cB venting) ... so many projects! Its crunch time and that's not cool.  Seriously. I just want it all done, done, done and for my birthday and Christmas break to just get here already.
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Jan 10 2008, 07:54 PM
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Dear cB diary,
every day i have this constant fear that i'm going to fail in life. my grades are almost all b's, and it's shameful. since my brother was a slacker in school and went to a community college, there's this huge pressure for me to do well and go to a good college. i constantly compare myself to others, even my boyfriend, mister straight a's-class president-principal of cello of his orchestra. i hate being jealous of him all the time. and i hate feeling jealous towards everyone who gets a's. on top of all of that, i don't even think i DESERVE an a. in the beginning of the year, i slacked off so much in school. with cheer, school, and trying to be involved in everything caused me to have no energy whatsoever to do any schoolwork. i forgot to write down homework so i didn't do it, bsed my essay, and slept in class. and now, i've been working my ass off just to try to raise my grades up to an a. and all my b's are all 88's, 89's. i feel like i'm not smart at all. it takes me so long to get things, and i never know what to do. and with all these flaws, how is any college ever going to accept me? it feels like everyone knows what to do and i'm the oddball out. i feel like this is also caused by my self-esteem. maybe if i believed in myself, i wouldn't be doing this horrible. but for the past 6 years, i've NEVER been okay with myself. i always pick out my flaws and taunt myself. this sucks. i hate school. and i think i'm beginning to hate myself. |
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