im feeling very open right now so... Options

[JCLore]

sorry this is so long but if you dont know all
you wont understand completely

I spent most of my childhood trying to blend in with people
i've constantly changed my appearence and personality to fit in
but i've never been successful in making a good true friend
i've had a best friend at points but it lasts about 2 years and then its over

i was a loner at the end of year 8
nobody wanted to talk to me or anything
in year 9 i started home education
which meant i had no contact with any other beings but family
im now in year 11 going 12
and all i have is online friends
and even those are few

i joined the Australian Air Force Cadets a while back
but all the people in the recruit area are 3 years younger than me
there fun and good friends but i think i need to make friends my age

im now going to a youth group and enjoying it
my closest cousin "Desiree" goes and has helped by introducing me to her friends
there great and my age and older, which is a bonus
i went to school with one of them but he hates me i think

My main point is that i feel intrusive into desirees life and i hate making people feel uncomfortable
any advice on what i should do would be greatly appreciated??

[*yrrnotelekktric*]

this may sound shallow,
but maybe you dont need friends.

i dont really have true friends either.
except maybe those ive kept in touch with since my elementary school days.

but then i realized, you`re really alone in this world.

im not saying its bad to have friends, but you dont always need to feel like friends will make you happy.

nevermind. this is just my opinion from my experiences.

[JCLore]

this may sound shallow,
but maybe you dont need friends.

i dont really have true friends either.
except maybe those ive kept in touch with since my elementary school days.

but then i realized, you`re really alone in this world.

im not saying its bad to have friends, but you dont always need to feel like friends will make you happy.

nevermind. this is just my opinion from my experiences.

i know what you mean
but when i picture my future
i picture having a family
and friends, really good friends

i feel drawn to make friends
even though im not that good at it

[jaeman]

i know what you mean
but when i picture my future
i picture having a family
and friends, really good friends

i feel drawn to make friends
even though im not that good at it

Just do it, make friends!