im feeling very open right now so... Options

[JCLore]

sorry this is so long but if you dont know all
you wont understand completely

I spent most of my childhood trying to blend in with people
i've constantly changed my appearence and personality to fit in
but i've never been successful in making a good true friend
i've had a best friend at points but it lasts about 2 years and then its over

i was a loner at the end of year 8
nobody wanted to talk to me or anything
in year 9 i started home education
which meant i had no contact with any other beings but family
im now in year 11 going 12
and all i have is online friends
and even those are few

i joined the Australian Air Force Cadets a while back
but all the people in the recruit area are 3 years younger than me
there fun and good friends but i think i need to make friends my age

im now going to a youth group and enjoying it
my closest cousin "Desiree" goes and has helped by introducing me to her friends
there great and my age and older, which is a bonus
i went to school with one of them but he hates me i think

My main point is that i feel intrusive into desirees life and i hate making people feel uncomfortable
any advice on what i should do would be greatly appreciated??

[ChangeofHeart]

Your mind cant be changed only your mask you wear, which you were doing yourself. Do what your mind craves and those "friends" you gained by putting on that mask are not true friends. Also Friends can come from any race, age or sex group.