How are you supposed to feel Options

[flytulip]

When you've lost your best friend of over ten years?
Because I just now, feel so torn, but at the same time, I don't feel anything.



I want you to know I tried my hardest, and you know, I might be the only person who could handle all of that the way I did. It's not about the one little incident, but everything else before that caused it to occur. And I still can't put the blame on anyone else but me. But I don't want to be a resentful person, so I'm letting it (you) go. Maybe I shouldn't just yet, but I am. I'm not being vain when I say this because it's probably the truest thing I'll ever say. I am a lot more deserving, and I can be replaced but I'll always be the biggest missing piece in that puzzle. So tell me you're not sorry because you realized it was the right thing to do and I can't keep coming back just so I could be below my level.

[transcendentalis...]

i can relate.. or at least i think i can. when people i knew passed, i barely cried at all. it's not that i wasn't miserable, because i know for sure i was - it's just that .. i don't know, i don't really cry over things like that.

people grieve differently. the day after one of my friend's grandmother died (they were super close), he told me that he thought he just wouldn't talk to people at all the next day, that he'd probably skip school, etc.. instead, he's at school, being his normal dumb self. he didn't cry either.

it's not that none of us have hearts. it's just a coping mechanism.