How are you supposed to feel Options

[flytulip]

When you've lost your best friend of over ten years?
Because I just now, feel so torn, but at the same time, I don't feel anything.



I want you to know I tried my hardest, and you know, I might be the only person who could handle all of that the way I did. It's not about the one little incident, but everything else before that caused it to occur. And I still can't put the blame on anyone else but me. But I don't want to be a resentful person, so I'm letting it (you) go. Maybe I shouldn't just yet, but I am. I'm not being vain when I say this because it's probably the truest thing I'll ever say. I am a lot more deserving, and I can be replaced but I'll always be the biggest missing piece in that puzzle. So tell me you're not sorry because you realized it was the right thing to do and I can't keep coming back just so I could be below my level.

[flytulip]

I know. I tell myself that so many times. It's just that I really don't think I should feel this way. Like I've just lost over a hundred pounds and I'm in better shape than ever. That's not how it should've been.. ? I weeped for a good sixty seconds and let it out the window. There must be something wrong with me. I must be so heartless.

I wish I could feel the way I'm supposed to.