Createblog Diary, Version 11. Options

[stephinika]

Dear cB diary,

It's my birthday in a week. I'm so freaking excited. I really hope it turns out as I plan it to be...I'm just so damned paranoid not enough people will give me their money for the bus! Ack. I need a few more still but oh well. In the meantime, school is keeping me busy (yet here I am on cB venting) ... so many projects! Its crunch time and that's not cool. Seriously. I just want it all done, done, done and for my birthday and Christmas break to just get here already.

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

It's been a while but here goes. Last night was pretty fun even though everybody else didn't enjoy the club as I did so much. I have no idea why exactly but I needed that stress breaker even though I danced like a maniac. Jeez, I need to get the radio because it was so awkward on the drive home. I felt so bad for mentioning my birthday to everyone because C's birthday party was a flop and she spent so much money on the place and everything. It was a disaster like mine last year and I think she cried. I have no idea what's the deal with P. It's weird even though I know we're not the best of friends but it's like he secret dislikes me for some reason. We are very different people though.

Yeah well, I really wanted to get today off my chest. Woke up early to get to work and yeah it sucked as usual. For some reason, my bitchy boss tried to be all friendly with me even though a couple days she yelled at me in front of everyone. I remember that shit because I didn't do anything wrong and now she wants to be good with me. Whatever, I think it's just the season. For some reason, I just felt so down at the end of work and I didn't want to talk to anyone.

Then all of a sudden I heard on the radio, "Big Girls Don't Cry" by Fergie. It just reminded me of Wendy. You see my name is Peter and the first movie I ever remembered first watching is Peter Pan. I even think my mom named me after him because my whole real name sounds similar. Well yeah, there's this girl who works at the orthodontist office I go to for my braces and she usually takes care of me. She is so undeniably beautiful and from the getgo she looks so accomplished with her life at the time. One day I was feeling down like usual and it showed. Well the Fergie song was on the radio over there too and she started singing it and for some reason I just felt like she was singing it to me even though I tried convincing myself it was just my imagination. Well later, I missed a few appointments and she must've gotten the impression I'm irresponsible by that time. One day I went to the office to pay off part of my bill and I couldn't help but overhear that the same girl's name was Wendy. I was just shocked and stunned because suddenly in the air, was our names being called, Peter and Wendy. Then I had a rush and my first ever fairy tale came flashing before my eyes and I realized that it had no happy ending. Peter Pan was the boy that never wanted to grow up, but then I just realized that if only he did, he could've fallen in love with Wendy. Wendy can't wait for Peter and would eventually grow up while Peter would still refuse to. I realized that I was living out my favorite fairy tale and today with that song playing in the background, I saw my life in this Neverland with my friends the Lost Boys. Maybe I'm just being overdramatic over this ironic realization, but I can't help but feel that I have/want/need to say, "I'm sorry Wendy."