theres this girl., and i love her, but i dont want to. Options

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i have had a relationship with this girl.. lets call her amanda, for almost a year now.
recently she moved, so we broke up. but we still had feelings for eachother. soon, i find out shes been lying to be that she went out with this girl... lets call her lola. and i mean i didnt get mad at her for like going out with another girl... cause i couldnt. we arnt together anymore. but it did hurt.
but i did get mad at her for lying about it.
so lola IM's me every now and then telling me how amanda is soo over me and doesnt want to have anything to do with me.
when amanda has a whole different story of how lola is just jealous, and she does love me.. and that going out with lola was a mistake [they only went out for a week... well thats what amanda says]
but amanda has been acting different and she keeps hurting me over and over again. and i want to get over her.
but its hard. and i dont even know if i should;; because what if amanda isnt really acting differnt and its all in my head cause of what lola has been telling me. like, maybe everything amanda has been telling me is the truth.
but then theres the thing that amanda barely ever calls me back, texts me back... maybe shes too busy? or shes over me?
i analyze things too much ive noticed.
the thing is, i dont think amanda knows what she wants.
but.. ugh then i feel stupid cause we arnt even together! and its so complicated and confusing...
help?