he's myy best & i love him., i'm in love with myy best friend!!!=/ Options

[jayybee]

okayy.
i met him the summer before myy junior year
[ima senior now, we in the same grade]
& we hit it off from the get go.
like we are soo much alike its freaky deeky weird.
anyway, when we met i was going out with this other boy
who wasn't exactly the best thing for me.
well my best friend was there through it all,
i mean he helped me realize that myy boyfriend
at that time was just playn me
&& that he kept coming back for me
because he knew i would let him.
Anyway, i broke it off with myy boyfriend & it was cool.
after about 6mnths of knowing him
i noticed that this guy is perfect for me.
i mean, perfect!!
he was another race [which i've always wanted to date]
he's great dresser, he makes me laugh, he a dancer!!!
[go figure!!??] && he stole myy heart.
throughout then && now i've just been attached to him.
texting him, calling him, little games
we've played with one another.
but one night last year it got serious, he started
hitting on me. like really hitting on me,
but im a chicken && i dont make the first move so i just went along with it like it was a joke or something.
well we continue to do it today but in a more intimate wayy
&& we are just like a real couple.
we argue, then make up, we have nicknames,
private jokes, private meetings.
the thing is i want to tell him but im scared &&
ive been hiding this secret for over a year now.
i think he knows because one night we were talking
&& he said that somethingg was different about me [after some heavy flirting].i asked how he said i dont know, you just
seem different.
since that happened i been stuckk on it.
i just need to know what to do.
help!!!

[Insurmountable]

Holy cow, that was the weirdest set up for a help post I've ever seen. LOL I thought you were making us read a poem XD

Get over your fear of rejection and go for it! Yes I do know its hard, your handing yourself over to someone. Your heart and they can either take it or reject it, life is full of chances and risks and you should go for it if you've been waiting for over a year now. If he's been flirting with you openly and going on with how this friendship is going I think he wouldn't mind being in a relationship with you. Just go for it, don't always wait for him to make the first move