the relationship you wished you had Options

[USCavalry]

this is for all those who are single or in a relationship that isn't what they really want.

i haven't dated for more than 2 years and the last girl i kissed had a boyfriend. i'm okay with being single as i'm sure many are, but i can't help but feel that i'm missing out on a life that i could be living. and to top it off i have commitment issues and catholic/christian standards for anyone i would date. i don't mean to whine and moan about my lack of romance, but can anyone else relate?

edit: bump, emotions aren't an attribute of emos alone

[yaamakoh]

i know being single does feel lonely, but a relationship isn't all that better. relationships cause drama, heartache, and scars that don't heal.
i'm single, and i yearn for that warmth for holding that significant other. i miss looking at the smile that they made, or some stupid things that they did which made me happy. those high points in relationships that i had, drinking hot chocolate while watching a movie in a blanket in my house. cuddling up for warmth in the same bed cause it's cold outside, putting my jacket on her cause it's cold. drinking together and letting out emotions loose, smoking together and just relaxing on a bench... talking about absolutely nothing. going into a resturant and not saying anything, because you're happy enough that they're there with you.
sitting in the car with the sunroof open, looking into the stars, planning an event and being excited since it's our anniversary.
but like yin, there's always yang...
jealousy, cheating, lack of trust, over obsession, sick of one another, too much partying, fights, silence, boredom, assumptions.
i too had a thing about dating only christian girls, assumed that they were the best, believed in God, had morals. as i made more friends, entered college, lived on my own in jersey, there's so many out there that don't have to be called a hypocrite becuase their christian. those that are sincere and geniune without the faith of God in their hands.
all i want is to find a relationship with someone, no drama, honest, and someone that appreciates everything about life and me. someone that i'd be willing to do anything for, someone who can look into my heart and know my honest feelings without feeling guilty.
something so perfect that it will never exist :(