Createblog Diary, Version 11. Options

[stephinika]

Dear cB diary,

It's my birthday in a week. I'm so freaking excited. I really hope it turns out as I plan it to be...I'm just so damned paranoid not enough people will give me their money for the bus! Ack. I need a few more still but oh well. In the meantime, school is keeping me busy (yet here I am on cB venting) ... so many projects! Its crunch time and that's not cool. Seriously. I just want it all done, done, done and for my birthday and Christmas break to just get here already.

[flutterby88]

holy man, this semester is almost over. SO much stuff to do before then, but being this scared and stressed out is what i need i think. cuz holy mother of god i've never had such an emotional semester. SO much has frickin happened to me! i've changed so much. first there was D :( but he just got offered a job! starts monday. he was only out for three weeks, so proud of him, he'll be back on his feet. if only him and M could be happier, i feel so bad for them. but not my problem. and then of course the biggest break up of my life. which i know i'm making a huge mistake by still hanging out with him so much. he still loves me and now that i'm dating other people it'll be weird if he keeps kissing me and stuff. definitely have to act as friends now. but yeah! J! omg, i can't believe that happened. haven't been that giddy in a while. it was a fun date. but that still threw me off. guys will be guys:(. but he's in toronto now so i don't have to worry. and C! cuter every week, hopefully we'll hang out more next semester. and C, i CAN'T wait for our little date! that'll be one my mom will be more excited for than me! but i do hope things work out with your girlfriend, if not then it's not meant to be. glad we're still good friends though. D... it's a very close friendship isn't it? but it's just that. i know she said that but she doesn't really know... and M! OMG SHE'S YOUR f**kING FIANCEE! WAY TO LEAVE OUT THAT TINY LITTLE DETAIL!!! you NEVER ONCE corrected me, said she's just your girlfriend. you're f**king engaged! i can't believe you. i feel even worse for flirting back with you now all these months. i won't do this. talk to me when i'm not the one you turn to because your relationship is failing. i trusted you.
MEN! omg they're all the same. i'm afraid of my cell phone, every time it goes off it's someone else. i mean i'm FLATTERED and this is what i WANTED in breaking up with him, but you gotta be careful what you wish for. it's very fun at times but not when it gets this complicated. i have to be so careful. but luckily i can talk to her about it:). oh god this is such new territory for me. gotta be smart about this.