I have trouble socializing Options

[dododiva]

I'm bad at conversations.

I'm usually quiet and envious of those who have a lot confidence and can easily talk to everyone. Well, i am always cautious of what i say, i never want to say the wrong things-yet, i think i still do.

Also, I'm really really afraid of being alone with a person. I end up panicking, trying to figure out what to say or do. This is a problem because in the future, how will i talk to my (future)boyfriend? How will i make new friends?

Usually, i make friends through connections of i have other people become friends with me. I'm very very shy. And when people say "be yourself" I'm just like, "How?" because I don't know the real me.''

Sounds really lame, but hey, it's my problem.

[Sandraaa]

Aww ... you're not alone in this world.

I'm not like you so I won't pretend to understand why you're like this. Personally, I'd rather be with someone who doesn't talk much rather than someone who talks crap all the time.
I just think you shouldn't think too much of what others will think of you. Just let go of everything that is holding you back from socializing. It won't be easy or fast though.