Ex-staff, curious Options

[*Insurmountable*]

Well I've been thinking and stuff and I was just curious for all the ex-staffies to come up and post their personal thoughts of when they were on staff and why they stepped down.

Do you think that they asked to much of everyone on staff, considering being on staff is a volunteering thing? Or was it just the people and the conflicting attitudes that always happened when new decisions came up and no one could come to an agreement that made all parties happy?


Please I only want the opinions of ex-staff members or members who thought of becoming staff but put that idea past them (for what reason)



Hmm this can be moved to feedback if you would like. Maybe we can take the responses and think of how to change for the better.

[Gigi]

I stepped down not because too much was expected of me, but because I felt guilty for not performing to my fullest as a moderator. Basically, my activity went downhill ever since I went on that 1-week trip to New York. It's funny how things happen like that.

I was so active before that, but always thought that I didn't get much recognition. Sure, people generally liked me, but I didn't feel like they understood how tiring it can become. I think that partly pushed me to become less active as well.

But I wasn't perfect. I did my fair share of "bad" things, but while I did talk about other members (as did the other mods), it was never really an inherent hate or cattiness, much less hypocrisy, just a short rant on how annoying they were being, or how to deal with them.

So, I don't think cB went downhill. This kind of hypocrisy has been around for quite a while, but we turned our backs on it. The only time I remember it being taken seriously was when it was discovered that Anna gave out her password to...oh God, what was his name? Nick? Shiet. Someone help me out here...or was it the other way around? Anyway, Jusun said that she would never get modded, and he meant never, (and, a little more help here, did she get modded anyway?). Nick was demoted, of course. And that whole drama with Nicki and James, and her stepping down. I said some things that I didn't mean (partly because I was hurt from what Nicki did), and I still feel bad about it. Sorry, Nicki.

I've thought about applying again, too. I admit, though, it wasn't because I wanted to help out, but only to have that kind of closely-knit community of moderators that existed when I was around. It felt good to be around people that cared. Then I realized that I'm way too busy and too indifferent to devote my time to help people that I don't even know, half of which are just complete assholes. That's when you start to realize you don't need to work hard, you become inactive, and you stop caring.

I come back pretty often now, just to check up on the forum, but to be honest, I've outgrown it. Drama sparks around every corner for no good reason, and the people, frankly, complain too much.

Sorry for the length.