OKay I need advide, GUY HELP PLEASEE Options

[Pumpx3itup]

okay this is going to be slightly confusing and
you need a summary of my bfs

#1 abused me
#2 used me
#3 pressured me
#4 loved me

okay, Soo I broke up with them all for obvious reasons except for 4
all he ever did was love me. and I broke up with him because someone started a rumor he just wanted in my pants and I got scared. so I ran.
But I really care about him but i'm really unstable and I don't know what to do I know he could help me heal. Ohh but main problem. ALL of my friends hate him and they got mad that i talk to him. but When i was in his arms I felt soo happy and safe. and happy and I aren't usually togetehr in a sentance. I'm battling depression, and a self harm addiction. I just want some advice from people who havent heard the rumors and maybe know how i feel

kthnx♥

ask anything you like if I left stuff out.

[lilsnoopy]

if I knew how a girl was feeling then I would do everything in my power to toy with her. I mean, it's a power thing. You let them take advantage of you and you paid the price. So, really it's your fault.

I agree with you. Really I do.
if someone is not able to love and accept themself, and stand up for themself, then they should not be in a relationship.
When you think your over the dillema, something comes up, and bam your back to where you started because you were never over it and rushed.
I was, after all, in your situation when I was younger (yes, the abuse, ect.)
I can say this from personal expereince
and when i say personal experience, I mean something far worse from what the "typical" girl faces in a "typical" romance, that no one girl should ever hope to face in a relationship.