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so the past couple weeks..i've been feeling like david (my bf) has been ignoring.. and i cant remember the last time he told me he loved me.
and last night, it had all built up inside of me and burst. david was joking with me about how i didnt know what something was. "OMG, i dont know you!" he said.. and for some reason, i said he acted like "he didnt..and i started crying. he was pissed because i didnt know how to take a joke..when really it wasn't the joke i was crying about. but he didnt get it and decided to ignore me crying and continue doing what he was doing. and one of our friends, kyle, was there too. and he came over at wrapped his arms around me for awhile while i tried to get a hold of myself and stop crying. and then david completely freaks and says he cant deal with this shit anymore and leaves after saying "f**k you" to kyle and then he emailed me and said: "wtf u just crying out of flippin nowhere... i mean flicking seriousely it was a flippin jk... and since you seem so comfartable in kyle's arms, go be with him from now on cause i dont want to deal with this crap anymore i am tired of u just crying out of flicking nowhere and having the nerve to say that u love me whenever your in another GUYS arms.... if u want to be that way..be my flippin guest cause i am done with this for good" and i replied: "i feel like you have been ignoring me...and t hat you dont care and dont love me........and for some reason i just burst. i'm sorry. i'd be a lot more comfortable in your arms...i'd sure as hell rather be there than with kyle. he just actually decided to try and comfort me. i love you so f**king much david! and it really hurts to feel ignored, especially by you. thats why i started crying, i can't remember the last time you told me you love me. but what i do know, is that i love you. and i cant lose you..." which he replied to: "then u should have just flippin told me instead of just crying out of flicking nowhere over a good for nothing jk i mean u laughing at me when boell was making jks at me but when i do it to u, its like oh so totally diff i c...... i am so flipping tired of this life and i dont know if i want to keep going with it anymore oh and do u thnk srry is gonna change how those ppl in the drafting room when u decided to cry will change how they look at me huh??? i dont thnk srry is gonna cover it this time... and personally just stay with kyle cause atm i dont ever want to c u again oh and wtf u being ignored...whenever i actually have a problem with my weekend and i talk to u about it after u ask me...all u say is "oh" and u like skip it...so dont flipping tell me that i am ignoring u cause u have always been ignoring me" and i said: "i told you that wasn't it didnt i? but maybe i didnt say it clearly enough. its not the joke, i could have laughed that off...but i was border line on tears already. why should i stay with kyle? he's just a friend to me. the fact that he is a guy makes no difference. i would have done the same thing if he had been jenni or vicki sometimes i dont know what to say...or i'm afraid what i'm gonna say is really stupid and isn't going to help any so i dont talk. just because all i said was 'oh' doesnt mean i was ignoring you. i invite you, next time you feel like talking to me, to go on even if all i say is oh. because i do care, i'm not ignoring you. i never would! i couldn't control that i started crying, if i could of i wouldnt have ever started crying because i dont like to cry. and it will blow off what they might have thought eariler today, they're all probably gonna forget it by monday. and if they don't i am sorry. if i could have chose any other place to break down, it definatly wouldn't have been there in front of everybody. and i wouldve told you what was going on if you stopped for a moment and asked... i'm sorry. i should have said something to you without having a complete breakdown i love you, and i really care about you. i reallly dont want to lose you just because i had a really dumb ass moment. when your ready to talk and maybe come to some sort of agreement or whatever, let me know. i'll always be ready to talk to you. i love you soo much" which he didnt reply to.. and so i feel like shit..and i cant do shit about it. EDIT: i didnt realizee this was so long...sorry |
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THE GOOD JOSH:
I see so much wrong with this... people do dumb things when they are in a relationship. What ever, *rubs hands together* lets make sense out of this. QUOTE "wtf u just crying out of flippin nowhere... i mean flicking seriousely it was a flippin jk... and since you seem so comfartable in kyle's arms, go be with him from now on cause i dont want to deal with this crap anymore i am tired of u just crying out of flicking nowhere and having the nerve to say that u love me whenever your in another GUYS arms.... if u want to be that way..be my flippin guest cause i am done with this for good" I can see why he's upset about the whole "You're in some other guys arms" situation, but at the same time you definitely weren't doing anything wrong. After all, what would make you want to jump into the arms of the a-hole who was cussing you out for what seemed to be you trying to express yourself. This kid has to learn that girls like to cry and flip out once in a while. It's not bad if it doesn't become a habit, but if it's an every day occurrence it can become a problem. I highly doubt that you have been this "huge problem". It sounds more like you try to avoid being a problem, and in return you're not saying enough. My advice here is, be yourself. You can't hold everything in and burst, hold everything and burst. You need to be yourself and just talk about how you feel with people rather than being afraid that you'll be a problem. I'm not saying you go out and burden people with your feelings either. You do need to give people a break sometimes, because listening to others and trying to understand them can be overwhelming and unattractive if over done. The best thing you can do is learn to find a happy median between both extremes. This takes experience, and you're going to have to accept that you will make mistakes. QUOTE "i feel like you have been ignoring me...and t hat you dont care and dont love me........and for some reason i just burst. i'm sorry. i'd be a lot more comfortable in your arms...i'd sure as hell rather be there than with kyle. he just actually decided to try and comfort me. i love you so f**king much david! and it really hurts to feel ignored, especially by you. thats why i started crying, i can't remember the last time you told me you love me. but what i do know, is that i love you. and i cant lose you..." You're bursting because you aren't expressing yourself. It sounds like the small things he isn't doing are turning into big things because they're all adding up. Even when he ignores you in the slightest bit, you're going to get upset because he's been doing it little by little so often. QUOTE "then u should have just flippin told me instead of just crying out of flicking nowhere over a good for nothing jk i mean u laughing at me when boell was making jks at me but when i do it to u, its like oh so totally diff i c...... i am so flipping tired of this life and i dont know if i want to keep going with it anymore oh and do u thnk srry is gonna change how those ppl in the draftingroom when u decided to cry will change how they look at me huh??? i dont thnk srry is gonna cover it this time... and personally just stay with kyle cause atm i dont ever want to c u again oh and wtf u being ignored...whenever i actually have a problem with my weekend and i talk to u about it after u ask me...all u say is "oh" and u like skip it...so dont flipping tell me that i am ignoring u cause u have always been ignoring me" Personally I just think he's being a douche bag here. He's just mad and he's taking it out on you. He does have a point about the whole "you not saying enough" thing at the end of his text. You do need to shy away from trying to avoid a problem to the point of being anti-social. QUOTE "i told you that wasn't it didnt i? but maybe i didnt say it clearly enough. its not the joke, i could have laughed that off...but i was border line on tears already. why should i stay with kyle? he's just a friend to me. the fact that he is a guy makes no difference. i would have done the same thing if he had been jenni or vicki sometimes i dont know what to say...or i'm afraid what i'm gonna say is really stupid and isn't going to help any so i dont talk. just because all i said was 'oh' doesnt mean i was ignoring you. i invite you, next time you feel like talking to me, to go on even if all i say is oh. because i do care, i'm not ignoring you. i never would! i couldn't control that i started crying, if i could of i wouldnt have ever started crying because i dont like to cry. and it will blow off what they might have thought eariler today, they're all probably gonna forget it by monday. and if they don't i am sorry. if i could have chose any other place to break down, it definatly wouldn't have been there in front of everybody. and i wouldve told you what was going on if you stopped for a moment and asked... i'm sorry. i should have said something to you without having a complete breakdown i love you, and i really care about you. i reallly dont want to lose you just because i had a really dumb ass moment. when your ready to talk and maybe come to some sort of agreement or whatever, let me know. i'll always be ready to talk to you. i love you soo much" The truth comes out, I think it's both of you. You're both ignorant and immature. It sounds like you're "typical girl who gets walked all over because she doesn't talk enough" and he's "typical guy who is upset because he doesn't understand you". It sounds like you don't talk enough for him to understand you. You need to open your mouth dear. Don't be so afraid to let things out. People are going to walk all over you if you don't let them know how you feel and what you think. Conversation takes practice. You'll probably suck at first, but you're going to get better with time. I think it's better for you to make mistakes and develop social skills than to not say anything at all and develop nothing. THE BAD JOSH: I agree with Jake. Grow the fuck up. Killing yourself? Oh my fucking goodness, you seriously need to grab your balls. You're problems are on such a small scale. Look at you guys. You're boyfriend is upset abotu how he will look in "Drafting Class". Fuck off. |
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