OKay I need advide, GUY HELP PLEASEE Options

[Pumpx3itup]

okay this is going to be slightly confusing and
you need a summary of my bfs

#1 abused me
#2 used me
#3 pressured me
#4 loved me

okay, Soo I broke up with them all for obvious reasons except for 4
all he ever did was love me. and I broke up with him because someone started a rumor he just wanted in my pants and I got scared. so I ran.
But I really care about him but i'm really unstable and I don't know what to do I know he could help me heal. Ohh but main problem. ALL of my friends hate him and they got mad that i talk to him. but When i was in his arms I felt soo happy and safe. and happy and I aren't usually togetehr in a sentance. I'm battling depression, and a self harm addiction. I just want some advice from people who havent heard the rumors and maybe know how i feel

kthnx♥

ask anything you like if I left stuff out.

[transcendentalis...]

i don't know how strong you are, but i personally think that if you love this guy and he loves you back, you'll be able to get over your past with him. it could take months. getting over my past did.

as much as a guy loves you, he doesn't want to be with a crackpot that's filled with insecurity and hopelessness with no self-respect who complains and shudders when she thinks about the past 24/7. i'm not saying you're this way - i doubt you are. but guys don't need to deal with that and all it really takes to get over stuff is willpower.

you know this guy loves you, or at least you think you do. i thought mine loved me, but obviously he didn't. either way, i eventually got all my willpower together (after he told me he didn't love me) and got over everything anyway. never forget that a guy that loves you is NOT going to try and harm you in any way. he's not trying to use you or being with you solely to get into your pants... and just remember that.

suck it up, explain it all to him, and see if you two can give it another shot.

ps. you don't NEED another person to help heal you. it's definitely helpful sometimes, but it's a terrible mistake to rely on that person to help you heal. you need 100% of your own willpower to make it through, not someone else's. if you rely on a force that isn't your own, when it leaves unexpectedly, you're just going to go back to square one.