Losing the will to live Options

[IfICouldEscape]

Basically got no friends, no girlfriend, the one I want I can't have, I can't get over, someone spread a rumour about me, not true, feel like shit, I bottle it in my room every day, noone I feel like I want to turn to despite my parents being fine and that, don't socialise, depressed.

How do people make friends lol? All the people at my school I just don't like, or they don't like me, I have developed social anxiety, basically I fear talking to people now, never know what to say, feel as if I'm being judged, I can't break the ice, it takes me agessssssssss to get to know someone properly to the point where when I walk by them I can stop and talk and not just walk by either ignoring them or just nodding my head. I haven't been able to get to that point apart from 1 person who I hold to my heart as a real close friend. I never know how to take a friendship further after the first meeting or two, with me it just seems like they become nodding pals after a while and I'm just thinking what am I doing wrong excluding the rumour but in different environments. I start to think I'm just such a boring person when they meet me. I find that there's nothing for me to see someone for after the first meeting point or 2/3 etc. I feel like a stranger to them and don't seem to build and connections. Sometimes I just talk to them for the sake of not looking like a loner but really I'm just bored of them and vice versa most likely. I'm starting to feel anxiety when I talk to people I hardly ever do or when meeting people for the first time. That way I find it more comfortable to just avoid talking to people all together, I even avoid talking to anyone really, at least I feel calmer. I seriously don't know what to say to break the ice, it really affects me. Any suggestions, thanks in advance.

[tr1pp1n]

no wonder you have no friends, beggars can't be choosers.

[IfICouldEscape]

no wonder you have no friends, beggars can't be choosers.

So you don't choose your friends. Meaning anyone is a friend to you, meaning you have no morals as to what a friend is to you? That's the thing you see you can either get along with anyone, where you jump on the bandwagon and become a follower for the rest of your life or you can find your own way in life and distinguish between between people you like and people you don't. I take it you're a follower.

[tr1pp1n]

So you don't choose your friends. Meaning anyone is a friend to you, meaning you have no morals as to what a friend is to you? That's the thing you see you can either get along with anyone, where you jump on the bandwagon and become a follower for the rest of your life or you can find your own way in life and distinguish between between people you like and people you don't. I take it you're a follower.

You're a f**kin pathetic loser who is crying about some petty problem here. If you seriously want friends so badly get off the computer and join some clubs. Right now you're pretending like you actually are someone who is normal but i highly doubt that. HAHA THATS WHY YOU DONT HAVE FRIENDS LOSER

"I like normal people _smile.gif I like people that are sporty, if into football the better, good fun and is up for anything really, and someone who takes pride in what they look like."

Its too bad they don't like you. Quit whining and go out and try to take some risks.

Hey seriously tho go see a shrink, you're f**kin pathetic