Losing the will to live Options

[IfICouldEscape]

Basically got no friends, no girlfriend, the one I want I can't have, I can't get over, someone spread a rumour about me, not true, feel like shit, I bottle it in my room every day, noone I feel like I want to turn to despite my parents being fine and that, don't socialise, depressed.

How do people make friends lol? All the people at my school I just don't like, or they don't like me, I have developed social anxiety, basically I fear talking to people now, never know what to say, feel as if I'm being judged, I can't break the ice, it takes me agessssssssss to get to know someone properly to the point where when I walk by them I can stop and talk and not just walk by either ignoring them or just nodding my head. I haven't been able to get to that point apart from 1 person who I hold to my heart as a real close friend. I never know how to take a friendship further after the first meeting or two, with me it just seems like they become nodding pals after a while and I'm just thinking what am I doing wrong excluding the rumour but in different environments. I start to think I'm just such a boring person when they meet me. I find that there's nothing for me to see someone for after the first meeting point or 2/3 etc. I feel like a stranger to them and don't seem to build and connections. Sometimes I just talk to them for the sake of not looking like a loner but really I'm just bored of them and vice versa most likely. I'm starting to feel anxiety when I talk to people I hardly ever do or when meeting people for the first time. That way I find it more comfortable to just avoid talking to people all together, I even avoid talking to anyone really, at least I feel calmer. I seriously don't know what to say to break the ice, it really affects me. Any suggestions, thanks in advance.

[*Flair*]

I honestly apologize Tamacracker. My point was - how can you know what's best for someone you don't know? The fact that you dismissed professional help ticked me off. Why not expand his options and let him choose?

Anyway, once again, I'm really sorry.

*sigh*

I don't feel well.

Oh, Rebecca, did you get my PM? Are you ignoring it?

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I honestly apologize Tamacracker. My point was - how can you know what's best for someone you don't know? The fact that you dismissed professional help ticked me off. Why not expand his options and let him choose?

Anyway, once again, I'm really sorry.

That's fine Flair, the thing is, I went through depression in both highschool and beginning of college. It wasn't about family problems or social problems nor feeling lonely or anything alike. It was school... I take education seriously, so when I would see a B get close to a C+, I get all whacked out and can't concentrate cuz I'm always thinking of my future.

Anyways in highschool, I had a friend who was Hindu and she knew I wasn't doing so well. I started to keep to myself more and stay away from the social gatherings. After explaining to her my problem, she simply said, "oh that's easy, try meditation." Then she joked saying, "why do you think Asians never crack in school? We meditate and relax ourselves then come back to reality."

Anyways, ever since my junior year of school, I've meditated and I've never been stressed out, nervous, fearful, depressed etc... things are great.

So meditation worked for me and I'm only passing along the advice. I don't think prescription drugs should be taken for mental health. That's just a cover up a form of numbing up the psychological issues, once you're off of them, you 're back to square one again.