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[WillTeddy]

Thoughts


When I was little, I use to think to myself what I wanted to do when I grow up

Now that time is slowly creeping up to me

I cannot escape it

I cannot deny it

I remember the days back in my memories where I would stare at the trees

The leaves still as my body leaning on the balcony

The green colour and the gentle breeze in the air would ease my pain of searching for purpose

I promised to myself I would make something of this life

Find love

Find passion

Find a purpose in life where I can live in peace

Protect the person that I love

Protect everything with my own hands

As a man, I'm willing to carry all the burden of this world onto my shoulders

Carry all the burden of my loved ones

To find that sense of dignity a true man should have

The protector

The provider

The one who's there to give

I want to go to a river bank and just lay there for a while

Stare up into the night sky and wonder

I try to keep optimistic

To be honest this world is just too frightening

A person is so powerless at the times where he/she needs to be strong

My heart and soul drifts into my alter reality

Searching for that tranquility and peace

I need strength

I want to be able to look into my hands and see power

Not a pair of pale hands slowly withering away into age

And die as the time passes

Ahh~ the sound of the rain is filled in my head

I don't even know what's reality anymore

I just feeling like pouring my heart out for someone

For the person I truely love

How I wish I was more of a man for her

Many times I really wanna apologise to her heart

Apologise for being spineless when she needs a man to stand tall and steady

I want to take her away from this reality for a moment

And into mine

So that we can drift together aimlessly not caring what our destination was

But enjoying the journey together

Where she would not be alone

To be that kind person beside her where she seeks comfort

I don't want to hurt her anymore

I don't want her to hurt anymore

I want to understand the mysteries of this world

I want to be able to help people instead of reading their problems

Powerless to act

I know that what I write at this moment will only exist in this very frame of time

Tomorrow will be a new day

And I will forget this feeling of regret that's trapped under my skin

I will live on and be the person that I'm known as to everyone that's around me

Waiting for this inner self to resurface again

Til that time comes my way once more

I will sleep and rest my mind

And let myself drift in infinity

And find the peace I wanted

Even if it's for one night

I want to live~

[cherry90]

its also a gd form of stress relief!!!!