Hiding, dunno. Options

[dispn0ygonekrazy]

I started to use like 12 syallables per line, and just wrote something random

when you mention his name I will swallow my words
theres this ache in my heart crying to be heard
but what can I do, theres nothing more I can say
would I have to cry and throw these feelings away

do i have to have to pretend and say I wouldn't care
or bottle up these feelings that I cannot bare
as it tears me apart I will live through this pain
and walk city to city in the pouring rain

while I take one last look, a final smile
I'll let you go and let you be for awhile
until you forget and erase my existence
I'll keep walking further out into the distance

waiting for the moment until that day will come
when your finally together with him as one
as I stay away hiding behind his shadow
and I'll wish it was me waking up tommorow

with you by my side and I'm finally complete
but a fantasy in my dream full of deceit
as the image I touch vanishes through my hand
would I be able to comeprehend or understand

the reality I can't see beyond these eyes
as I'm shrouded by fairy tales and all these lies
like cinderella and her loving prince charming
I wish my story could have a happy ending

but wishing is for fools they would never come true
even if I still wish I'd rather be a fool
than a person without a life and no meaning
at least I can try to make a happy ending

[iDecay]

You didn't understand my A B C thing?