Do You Ever Think About Me Anymore?, self-explanitory Options

[MrStrife]

Well here's the deal guys. I just overheard Ne-yo's new song called "Do You" and the fact that I can relate to it made inspired to finally write about this. There's this one girl who I'll call Nyna for memory of one of my exes. I met Nyna close to 7-8 years ago at dance that was held at a church. When I first saw her, I instantly liked her and wanted a dance but she ended up dancing with one of my boys instead. Okay whatever was what I thought and later on Nyna and a bunch of my friends went to one my boys house to toke and drink. After one my boys jacked a car and we went on a g-ride for a few hours in Boston and she had sat on my homeboys lap to make room. My homeboy knew I was jealous and kept on smiling at me while she kept ignoring me. I had to get dropped off first and wanted to get a hug from Nyna right but the thing was she started bitching like get the f* out and fine whatever. Bitch right?

Well later on, we got back into contact with each other and started talking a lot on the phone. She apologized for acting that way and I'm like whatever about it because I wasn't crushing on her anymore. We became good buddies at that point and just talked about whatever. She lived in the projects where a lot of my friends lived by so we knew a lot of the same people and she made friends with my sister and my cousin. We got really close at this point. Then what do you know she meets a guy and they start dating for what seems like an eternity. To this day, I have neither met nor talked to him.

One new years night, she spent over my house (she slept over with my sister in her room) and we all toked and drank with 6 people. One of the funnest nights of my life because we all acted wicked stupid and just cracked up on each other all night. I actually picked up a 30$ snowglobe/musicbox for her as a late xmas present and gave it to her. She didnt show any emotion when she got it almost rather disappointed I thought so later on that night I grabbed the present back and gave it to another girl because I thought she'd at least enjoy it, you know. Plus when midnight came, I wanted a kiss but she ended up kissing the air. Sad, huh? I spent the night over at my homegirls house and never wanted to talk to Nyna again.

She got mad at me for taking the gift back and claimed she did love it but I wasn't convinced and my homegirl knew that the gift wasn't meant for her but I didn't want to take it back. Gift that nice was meant to be treasured, you know. Eventually we got over it and kept talking, getting closer and closer while all the time she was still with her boyfriend. Talked about everything and got really personal. Before I knew it, she became my best friend.

That changed one night when she got really emotional with me. See both of our fathers left us when we were kids and I did my best to comfort her. She started crying and well that's as far as I'm going to say about it because it's too personal actually. That one night was special because our feelings were out there and we were there for one another but still she had a boyfriend and I wanted to do the right thing. Later, she got into a big fight with her boyfriend because she caught him cheating on her. She already made up her mind and broke it off. Later on though, she hooked up with a guy from another set (who actually is my enemy which hurts, you know) got physical with him but eventually got back with her previous boyfriend. I got so heated about what happened that I didn't want to talk to her no more, blocked her and everything. Still, I couldn't help but think about her.

Couple years passed by, and I was doing better. Keeping busy, staying in school, living the single life. All was going great until I saw her one day on the way to work. It was like nothing changed at all and it was so great seeing Nyna again. She looked way better than before but come to find out from her she just had a baby and was still with her baby daddy (her boyfriend from all that time). We exchanged numbers and what not and still talk to each other. We both grown up a lot since the first day we met and after all that time we're still best friends. We still know each other the best and have so much fun being ourselves around each other. She knows I'm still there for her and I've actually proved it. Sometimes though, I get the urge to want to be with her more than a friend and I can sense that she does sometimes too. Frustrating because we both honestly do love each other and we both know it but the fact is that we just can't be together.

Thanks to anybody who took time to read this. Comments are appreciated.

[MrStrife]

^That was beautiful. Simple, honest, and exactly what I needed to hear. Thanks and sorry it was so long. lol.