Need some help to settle down Options

[JonathanK]

K so if you guys/girls saw my last couple of posts awhile ago so many bad things have happened to me in the past week and a half. My girlfriend Broke up with me, she said she would still be my friend and talk to me. then a couple of days later my grandfather passed away. And then when i needed to talk to her the most she stopped talking to me and now ignored me somewhat. We talk sometimes but it's only for a short while now. I really wanna know whats going on in her head. I was thinking of like going in the same room as her and blocknig the door and say like * I wanna talk to you not this wall i have been talking to for the past 2 weeks*. Like i still have some feelings for her since she was my first girlfriend and i heard she still likes me too. Lately I've just been so pissed off. Like i feel like i'm losing control. When My cousin and I went boxing this guy was bugging us and if you have seen the movie fight club I basically pulled that. He punched me in the gut and I just basically kept asking for more like *No i didn't quite catch that man* then he hit me. Then I replied *still not getting it* he hit me again. lol then I was like * i got it, i got it, i got it.....shit I lost it* then when he tried to hit me again I tackled him and broke his nose. it's like i blacked out or something. I just get really frustrated with what has happened so far. So if any of you people have any words of advice or tips to help me get through this I would truly be greatful.

[JonathanK]

Looks like everythnig that has happened in the past couple weeks in my life turned from sorrow to now just plain pissed off at everything. Almost knocked someone out today cause i could not take all the pressure and they were just pissing me off. Please someone pinch me and wake me up