Need some help to settle down Options

[JonathanK]

K so if you guys/girls saw my last couple of posts awhile ago so many bad things have happened to me in the past week and a half. My girlfriend Broke up with me, she said she would still be my friend and talk to me. then a couple of days later my grandfather passed away. And then when i needed to talk to her the most she stopped talking to me and now ignored me somewhat. We talk sometimes but it's only for a short while now. I really wanna know whats going on in her head. I was thinking of like going in the same room as her and blocknig the door and say like * I wanna talk to you not this wall i have been talking to for the past 2 weeks*. Like i still have some feelings for her since she was my first girlfriend and i heard she still likes me too. Lately I've just been so pissed off. Like i feel like i'm losing control. When My cousin and I went boxing this guy was bugging us and if you have seen the movie fight club I basically pulled that. He punched me in the gut and I just basically kept asking for more like *No i didn't quite catch that man* then he hit me. Then I replied *still not getting it* he hit me again. lol then I was like * i got it, i got it, i got it.....shit I lost it* then when he tried to hit me again I tackled him and broke his nose. it's like i blacked out or something. I just get really frustrated with what has happened so far. So if any of you people have any words of advice or tips to help me get through this I would truly be greatful.

[JonathanK]

o....k wow now i'm just pissed off now. I feel like hitting someone or something. i went running and just finished working out but i'm all filled with anger about everything arghh somebody wake me from this nightmare